Working. At 3 in the Morning. And the Need for Black Manufacturers

Good.

Morning.

From Philadelphia....

If I am getting yet another lesson in what I have typed to you all about, regarding THE LACK OF ACTUAL QUALITY. In White Manufactured and Produced Goods, I'm seeing it again today. Literally right now.

This scanner I have is showing how poor quality it is, with scans like this one;

Where it is blurred at the fringes and corners.

Never mind that without me contrasting the crap out of it, it makes the drawing look dingy, meanwhile the actual drawing is not.

So now, I need to buy A MORE EXPENSIVE SCANNER?

Or do I go with a DIGITAL CAMERA?

You see all I hear is cash-registers ringing for more Low-quality HIGH PRICED White Corps to rip ME OFF EVEN FURTHER.

Then the excuses will be x-y-z and a demand to BUY something MORE EXPENSIVE.

Which will SUPPOSEDLY HAVE MORE FEATURES.

Supposedly BE, even MORE BETTER.

But have EVEN MORE INHERENT FLAWS IN IT.

Meaning I need to BUY something EVEN MORE EXPENSIVE.

-_-

So I decided to do ANOTHER SCAN of Duchess;

One thing I was proven right about was the fact that THIS IS WHY SO MANY ARE USING COMPUTER PROGRAMS TO DRAW THEIR ARTWORK.

It ELIMINATES many of the INHERENT FLAWS that White Scanner-Technology & PROBABLY Digital Technology, has!

So the inherent dingy background that this scanner and probably others, will add to the drawing, DOES NOT EXIST IF I USE A COMPUTER PROGRAM TO DRAW MY ARTWORK. Computer Program Drawings TEND TO LOOK LIKE THIS;

As you can see it is CLEANER.

But notice that EVEN THOSE THESE ARE NOT ONLY DIFFERENT ARTISTS FROM DIFFERENT FUCKIN COUNTRIES! 

It all LOOKS THE FUCKIN SAME!

I'm NOT INTERESTED IN BEING A CLONE OF SOME KID IN JAPAN OR EUROPE!

And I could give two fucks about whether "they're successful there". And yes, I know it is 3:30-something EST in the AM. The works GOTTA GET DONE, RIGHT! And it AIN'T GONNA DO ITSELF!

So now? I'm being backed into a corner due to technology limitations AND MONEY LIMITATIONS FOR EQUIPMENT! So now you SEE WHY WHITES WANNA KEEP US POOR AND BEGGING! Because when you have NO MONEY, YOU CAN'T EVEN PAY FOR THE PRE-EXISTING SHIT, now watch, watch now....

So you can REVERSE-ENGINEER IT AND INNOVATE ON IT FOR YOURSELF!

You see, I have a number of secrets that I have NOT SHARED.

One of which was that I used to take BROKEN BOOM-BOXES AND OPEN THEM UP AND WIRE THEIR CASSETTE PLAYERS SO THAT I COULD LAYER THEM SO THEY PLAYED MUSIC ALL AT THE SAME TIME!

I never went any further into electronics, out of frustration dealing with the White assholes claiming to be teachers at my high school. And my attempts to get other Black ADULTS TO ASSIST ME AND INVEST IN FURTHERING MY EDUCATION IN THIS, WAS TREATED LIKE I'D DISCOVERED HOW TO MAKE AN ATOM BOMB "Hey-hey-hey, HOW YOU LEARN DAT DARES WITH DA OPENING STUFF UP AND WIRING!? SAY NOW, MASSA NOT GONE BE HAPPY YOU'Z IZ RUNNIN AROUND FIXING STUFF AND FUCKIN WITH STUFF WITHOUT DEY'S PERMISSIONS!!!!!"

Eh.

There are times when I think back on some of the shit that Black Adults and Black Parents would say to Us.

THE FEAR.

Annoys me.

Quite frankly sitting here typing this now, it ANGERS ME.

As it RIGHTFULLY SHOULD. 

Grown BLACK ADULTS who should be HAPPY ABOUT "Damn these kids are APPLYING THEMSELVES!" instead it turns into "HEY NOW!? HEY!? WHO ELSE BE KNOWIN ABOUT DIS HERE SHIT YA'LL BE DOIN!? NOW!? YA'LL CUT THAT OUT! FOR SOME WHITES COME OVER AND DO SOME SHIT TA YA'LL!"

>_<

Really?

REALLY!?

"HEY!? WHUTCHU WRITIN DOWN DARE SHAWN!?"

"How do you spell your name again?"

"WHUTCHU NEED TO BE SPELLIN MY NAME FOR!?"

"So I can get rid of you later on. Because you are useless."

And no.

I am not exaggerating.

This was part of the reason why My Mother was like "What the fuck kind of child tells an adult to THEIR FACE that they're a coward and useless!?" I remember how she told me to apologize and I told her "No. HE SHOULD APOLOGIZE FOR BEING A COWARD!" needless to say that man stopped dating My Mother. As he should. Because I made it clear, one way or another, you? Are out of here. One way or another. Like she needs to get pregnant by another loser and then you're already a goddamn fuckin coward with some actual fuckin skill as an electrician. And instead of fuckin helping me develop my skills, you're too busy cowering!

Generations of Black People murdered and conditioned to bow and scrape and BEG! For the right to EXIST. And APPLY THEMSELVES. But fools think shit is a joke. And that over half-a-fuckin-century of horror-stories just goes down a mythical drain because the abusers and losers say so. Yeah okay. Sure. Sure that's how it works. You just stay....

Right there.

You just hold still.

Because I know what and who is going down the drain next.