Reflecting while Walking Away....

Good.

Morning!

From Reflecting on Things, from Philadelphia....

This. 

Scene.

Accurately reflects what's going on with Me Right Now and Why I posted nothing when I got home last night;

I was physically exhausted yesterday by the time I got home.

I got this drawing Finished;

But all throughout yesterday I was left to think about "Why can't I go Faster? Why can't I DO MORE THAN JUST THIS?"

These are questions that a person worth The Sperm and the Egg spent to create Them and Bring Them Into This World.

Ends Up Asking Themselves and QUESTIONING THEMSELVES ABOUT.

While on Their Journey to Reach WHATEVER Their Goal/s Are.

But They ask Themselves that in DIRECT RESPONSE TO THE FACT THAT THEY ARE TRULY WORKING AND PRODUCING RESULTS WITH THEIR WORK, but...?

They Wish to Do More.

Need to Do More.

The Loss of the Power and People I had.

Then the Reconnection with Some of Them.

Is part of the Reason why the Overlord-anime resonates with Me.

Yesterday?

And right up to Now.

Even as I was working and completing this drawing;

I kept thinking about how much more work I need and want to get done.

And I cannot get it done Fast Enough.

I need to go, Faster!

I need to get, More Done!

And it was by the Time I headed to the Shuttlebus that I was reminded that I've tasted what it means to go Faster and Get More Done!

With the Smartphone I had to give up in order to get out of the lovely little trap My Mother and Niece had set up.

And that pissed Me Off.

It.

Pissed.

Me.

Off...!

Money?

Wasted.

Time and Expectations?

Wasted.

Then the Callous Disrespect and Disregard.

And then when I look at the Fact that, the very least these dirt-bags, because Yes They are Dirt-bags.

The Least these dirt-bags can do, is just stay the fuck out of My Way.

But They Can't.

And even as I was riding the Shuttlebus I realized that Me.

Wasting My Time.

Even bothering to interact with these Bootlicking Slaves.

Is how that crap happened.

One moment of Weakness.

In Dealing with the Wicked....

Created this feeling of Me Thinking that I should be going Faster and Producing More Content, while no longer having the Means to Do So as AN INDIVIDUAL.

And that is the Keyword here;

Individual.

By the Time I got home last night...?

I was in no mood to post anything nor do anything except for try to get some sleep.

Because I was forced to look at the Fact that what I am doing, has actual generational-ability.

While what They are doing, does not.

So I spent time just...?

Reflecting.

While continuing to Walk-Away from those who, in all honesty.

Have always done Me more Harm.

Than Good.

On Purpose.

For the Sake.

Of Maintaining Their Selfish Lifestyle.

And Destructive Power of being able to Do Whatever Self-Absorbed, Banal-Bullshit.

I have to keep moving towards My Goals.

And it will have to be done without Them.

And it Will Be Done.

Without Them....