Pssssssssssssssst, I'm STILL full of shit.

GOOD MORNING FROM UPPER DARBY!

Good morning EVERYBODY! Hope you've been having a GOOD MORNING! I went to bed around 3am, I literally just checked my last post to see what time I made My Last Post at in comparison to when I finally went to bed.

I started RE-editing last night and finally couldn't see straight by 3am and had to call it a night. But I actually got through the first 2-chapters and made the proper corrections to caps. Because that's all that's really the problem.

I'm gonna leave the ebook as is.
I'm gonna leave it as is as far as its size because TO ME.
An enjoyable read is an enjoyable read.
If I've done My Fuckin Job as a writer than people are gonna read it and keep reading till they're done, REGARDLESS OF ALL ELSE.
I think because of how much things have changed in regards to how people are now ENCOURAGED to SEEK LESS or just flat out QUIT! If something even SEEMS TOO MUCH OF ANYTHING, that is another reason why I WAS concerned and hesitant.

But as I thought, a little bit of SLEEP!
Gives a whole lotta clarity.
Lemme GET TO IT!

AND I SEE YOU OVER THERE IN SOUTH AFRICA!
I've been watching closely and the core South African Audience that I've had since day-1, ya'll still ridin with Me, which I APPRECIATE! But it's really interesting that as soon as I started going at it with Stacey My SA numbers MASSIVELY INCREASED!

Then the moment I stopped directly GOING AT HER for that bullshit "book" she's "supposedly" working on? My SA pageviews PLUMMETED BACK DOWN. And I'm A STRAIGHT-SHOOTER. The things I type on here aren't bullshit or me pretending to be someone I'm not. I thought that My SA pageviews were going through the roof STRICTLY BECAUSE of the fact that Stacey is an SA-Colouredwoman. So I peeped how her NORMALLY DISMAL google+ views WENT THROUGH THE ROOF. From 10 or 15-a-day google+ views to 300-TO-500 VIEWS! For as long as I was ridin Her Ass over what she'd chosen to do with that Pssssssst-bullshit.

So as soon as I FELL BACK with Hell March of REALITY?
Then didn't HIGHLIGHT HER anymore HERE?
Her own google+ numbers in views NOSEDIVED BACK TO NORMAL.
Now some of you might say, because of today's times "Why did you do all that, Shawn? Why were you monitoring HER VIEWS and all of this?"

Because I wanted to see WHILE I WAS ADDRESSING HER DECISION TO DO WHAT SHE DID, where? She didn't NEED TO PUT THAT PSSSSSSST-EXCERPT OUT TO THE INTERNET WHERE SHE KNEW IT WAS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO COME ACROSS IT. And like I said, I've talked about from day-1 that I DO NOT TRUST HER. And for GREAT REASONS.

But to GET THE CHANCE TO OBSERVE WHETHER I AM MAKING ANY IMPACT, IN COMPARISON TO A WOMAN WHO ALWAYS WANTS TO PLAY-GAMES AND WASTE TIME? You bet YOUR ASS I WANTED TO SEE WHAT EFFECTIVE-AFFECT, EVERYTHING WAS HAVING ON BOTH OF OUR BLOGSITES. And I saw first hand, yo? I'm up on here, not fuckin around. I don't GIVE YOU MY READERS, HALF THE STORY WHEN I TYPE ON HERE.

I needed to SEE the TANGIBLE RESULTS OF MY-STYLE. MY-VIEWS OF LIFE AND THE WAY I'VE LIVED MINE vs. HER-STYLE. THE WAY SHE HAS CHOSEN TO DO THINGS AND LIVE HER LIFE. And while I'm watching THAT? See how SA-VIEWERS REACT TO THE WHOLE THING, TOO. I like SEEING WHO IS SEEING ME. For everyone reading this and "LOOKING AT ME". I will tell you with 1,000%-certainty I AM ALSO LOOKING BACK AT YOU, TOO. EVEN THOUGH YOU DO NOT TYPE OR SPEAK TO ME DIRECTLY UNLESS YOU DECIDE TO.

Shout out TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE LEFT COMMENTS AND POSTED VIDS OR POINTS WHERE I'VE READ IT. SEEN IT. AND THEN RE-POSTED THEM HERE. But do NOT be fooled. I may APPEAR to simply be the one ON DISPLAY, BY CHOICE I ADD, BY CHOICE. Because I've decided to type what I've typed and post what I've posted. But do not think that I cannot see you too. And it was VERY INTERESTING to see how My SA-audience REACTED. And then how it caused HER VIEWS TO EXPLODE UPWARDS WHERE?

Drama always causes fits and explosions of INTEREST.
But it DOESN'T SUSTAIN ANYTHING OR ANYONE.
This was a FUNDAMENTAL-DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HER-&-I THAT ULTIMATELY DESTROYED OUR RELATIONSHIP.
Because I understood that. AND RESPECTED THAT.
She understood it, BUT IS A DRAMA-JUNKIE. So she DIDN'T RESPECT THAT.
And lemme make it crystalline-clear.
LEMME BE PERFECTLY CLEAR HERE.
This isn't about starting up shit with Her, no.
This is about ME. LOOKING AT THE SA-AUDIENCE WHO RAN UP IN HERE WHEN DRAMA WAS GOING DOWN AND THEN BROKE OUT FAST AS FUCK SOON AS I DROPPED IT.

So while THE TITLE TO THIS POST? May APPEAR TO BE, DIRECTED AT HER, nahhhhhhhh, muthafucka's. NOPE. This is actually about how I SAW YOU SA. I feel like fuckin Corey Holcomb now, I SAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWW YOU. I peeped how eeeeeeevvvvvvvvverybody came RUNNIN! When drama jumped off! But the second the Drama-Genie got put back in the bottle...?

That big crowd of SA-viewers I got....
They dispersed like the fuckin Scorpions had just kicked down their door and raided their shit! And ya'll muthafucka's in South Africa know EXACTLY who the Scorpions were, so you know what I'm talking about.

We will KICK IN YOUR SHIT! You corrupt-ass MUTHA-FUCKA!

At one point My SA-pageviews were at 130 DURING ALL OF THAT DRAMA.
Now?
I'm back to the Original-14 that always used to read what I wrote from day-1 of me starting this blog. So I learned a lot IN A BLIND-EXAMPLE WAY. And when I say BLIND-EXAMPLE I mean blind by the fact that I never spoke to those other 116-SA viewers who came up here and were interested and have now left just as quickly as they came, MEANWHILE IN COMPARISON!?

My USA pageviews JUMPED INTO THE 400's! RIGHT NOW AS I TYPE? It is 263. I've been WATCHING THEM TOO, and UNLIKE THE SA VIEWERSHIP? The MOMENT I POST ANYTHING? THE USA PAGEVIEW IMMEDIATELY STARTS CLIMBING BACK TO THE 400'S! Where I have been OBSERVING THIS ENOUGH to see that THE USA-VIEWERS SIMPLY LEAVE WHEN I DON'T HAVE SHIT TO SAY AND AREN'T POSTING LIKE I NORMALLY DO. So they COME BACK the moment I make a POST.

But the SA-numbers? They have ONLY GONE DOWNWARDS AND DO NOT GO BACK UPWARDS. So this is why I said, I may not SEE OR TALK TO ANY OF YOU DIRECTLY. But rest assured I am "SEEING YOU TOO". I'm also getting answers on My Way of Life. Versus Stacey's Way of Life. And ALL OF YOU HAVE VALIDATED WHAT I TOLD HER REPEATEDLY.

People will always hang around you when they know you always got some meaningless drama going on. But those same people will GET IN THE WIND soon as something serious goes on and now YOU NEED ACTUAL SUPPORT and they are nowhere to be found. The REALITY IS, it ISN'T THEIR FAULT that they are only there for YOUR DRAMA. It is YOUR FAULT AND MINE IF WE DECIDE TO IGNORE THAT THEY'VE SHOWN US THAT ALL THEY'RE HERE FOR IS TO ROLL AROUND IN OUR MISERY OR MISHAPS. Where they've shown they only hang with you or me, because WE'RE FUN TO WATCH FUCK-UP. So now?  If you OR I KEEP LETTING THEM HANG AROUND, when we know they don't honestly give a fuck about us, then?

THAT'S OUR FAULT.
If you DECIDE to let bullshitters HANG AROUND YOU?
Then THAT'S YOUR FAULT.
If I do the same thing, then?
THAT'S MY FAULT.
Because they've shown me, they've shown you, what THEY'RE ABOUT, now?
It's time for YOU OR ME to decide WHAT AM I ABOUT?
It's not a good idea to keep people around you who only are around you to feed off of the drama or negative-situations in Your Life. I've been watching My SA-viewership shrink lower and lower and I've seen how now that the drama is over? Her google+ views are back to a belly-crawl. 4? Maybe 8-per day. Shit like that. Mine on the other hand?

They still range from a minimum of 100+ to 1,000-views. But it isn't because I'm some Black blogger shock-jock, no. It's because the things that I have to say have SOME REAL VALUE in everyday life in some way, shape, or form. I say all of this TO YOU NOW. To show you why I WAS, was. So concerned about My ebook being so large and "intimidating looking". Because drama, mindless, stupid. Useless-drama. Is the driving force for too much today. It's profitable. It's made to look glamorous and sexy to the point of pointlessness. So when I got the chance to HONESTLY OBSERVE AND SEE AND TAKE NOTES AND THEN DIRECTLY COMPETE IN A HEAD-TO-HEAD OPPORTUNITY VERSUS SOMEONE I KNOW LOVES DRAMA WHILE CLAIMING NOT TO?

Observing the whole thing as it was going on. Taking notes. Paying attention. To see if MY BELIEFS, versus Stacey's BELIEFS. In this brief-small way, WHICH ONE WAS CORRECT. IS CORRECT. AND OBSERVING THE AUDIENCE WHO THINKS THEY AREN'T ACTUALLY ABLE TO BE OBSERVED. It was all so fuckin interesting to me to just sit back and see how everyone, INCLUDING MYSELF. Conducted ourselves throughout it all. But I got my answer and it helped to settle my nerves and PROVE THAT;

Now truly is the time to put forward QUALITY. Because the environment allows for quality to stand out even more, due to the fact that flash-n-trash is being pushed beyond the point of excess. It's still a universal-fact that people will only take YOU as seriously as you take YOURSELF. Thank ALL OF YOU who are STILL HERE. And there are STILL A LOT OF YOU HERE. Thank you for continuing to ride with me and showing that this isn't about trying to get a drama-junkie-fix. But YOU ARE HERE because IT IS WORTH BEING HERE. Lemme get my ass in gear and finish RE-RE-editing the ebook. Make sure these cap-alterations don't screw up the overall flow of the ebook, then? I can finally post it up and activate the site. Hope you ladies-n-gents are having a great one no matter where you're at!
LATER!