^_^!!!!!
I haven't had that problem. Not bad for an evil-looking average Blackman. But that is because I have always known that women regardless of race-n-place don't actually aim solely for looks from men. A lotta Spy Hunter smokescreen-shit is being tossed out there today and you have Whites and other idiots of Non-White descent trying to get women to act more like men, meh!
But at the end of the day you look half-way decent and/or know how to carry yourself, have some confidence and not be afraid of rejection and then OPEN. YOUR MOUTH, AHHHHHHHHHH, LA-LA-LA-BLAH-BLAH-BLAH, GIMMIE SOME PUSSY!
-_-
Okay, that, that was A BAD EXAMPLE! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
My point is, as a man, regardless of who you are. If you don't have SOME SENSE OF YOURSELF, guess what, women, can sense that shit. Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd, you'll get nowhere, MOST OF THE TIME.
Jesus K. Christ and I fuckin talking about how to get women, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH, O_O no seriously, AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Meanwhile My Sworn Brothers will see this and be like "HEY MUTHAFUCKA! IF YOU JUST FUCKIN STOP RUNNIN WITH THE CRAZY-BITCHES THEN YOU'D BE ALL-FUCKIN-RIGHT!"
-_-
And to them I say "MEH!"
What fun would that be?
O_O
You know I'm bullshittin you right.
The reality is that I COULD HAVE stayed married to Noni.
The Reality is I COULD HAVE MARRIED STACEY.
But the Reality is ALSO that I am not here to condone a woman trying to be slick with me. Noni wanted me to just LOOK THE OTHER WAY, as she spent up $1.000's of dollars! And was more interested in sweating the nuts of THE WHITES I WAS GETTING INFO FROM FOR MY BUSINESS, instead of me. And FOR ME? That Inferiority Complex of Hers just became too goddamn criminal ONCE WE GOT MARRIED. It was like "Finally! NOW I CAN LET YOU SEE JUST HOW MIND-FUCKED I AM ABOUT BEING BLACK NOW THAT WE'RE OFFICIALLY MARRIED, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! NOW I CAN RELAX AND TALK TO YOU ABOUT HOW GREAT WHITE PEOPLE ARE and HOW INSANELY JEALOUS OF THEM I AM.... While sabotaging your every attempt to get Us to the next level, NO. SELF-HATRED."
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAH, NO!
>_<
And well, Stacey?
"I jess wanna fuck around for the sake of fucking around BECAUSE BEING WITH YOU IS FUCKIN CHALLENGING AS SHIT AND I NEED A BREAK EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE! But you don't cheat on me. I'm just going to... Cheat... On you. BUT NOT REALLY! It's not really cheating cuz, REASONS! NOOOOOH, GOOD SENSE!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA, NO!
>_<
So for me it's just a thing of I need to make better decisions in women. And I'm sure if Noni sees this and WHEN Stacey sees this, it'll be "FUCK YOU! NEVER SHOULD'VE BEEN WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE!"
^_^
Okay.
Then JUST REMOVE ME FROM YOUR LIFE AND REMEMBER WHAT YOU WERE DOING PRIOR TO ME.
No. Bullshit.
To be honest I do love how the world has been overrun with all these TD Jakes-types and excuse makers who tell horrible people or just irresponsible people that somehow their own horrible-ness & irresponsibility is a-okay. Thankfully!? I don't co-exist for so long with people like that, so? Yeah. When I think about if I remove Noni from My Life...? Art already told me and -_- Shimmell has reminded me enough times "FUCKIN IDIOT! Every time you weren't dealing with her ass, HOW WAS YOUR FUCKIN LIFE GOING ALONG!? Lemme see, MONEY!? PEACE OF MIND! GOOD JOB! FREEDOM OF MOVEMENT AND FREEDOM FROM DRAMA! But you kept on going back or letting her back in and now the bitch has had MY NEPHEW IN HER FUCKED UP ASS CLUTCHES FOR HOW LONG NOW!?"
Hmmm, good point.
As for Stacey?
Meh!
My Life when she entered it, was about RESOLVING AND CLEANING UP PAST MISTAKES AND MOVING FORWARD. It wasn't about SHE FOUND ME MOPING ALONG AND BEING AN EMO-BITCH HIDING ONLINE OR RUNNING ONLINE TO ESCAPE THE REALITY OF MY LIFE.
No.
She found me, SOLVING MY PROBLEMS. And NOT IN A LITTLE WAY EITHER. So if I REMOVE HER FROM MY LIFE? I'm probably NOT TYPING TO YOU RIGHT NOW. But I would have been TYPING TO YOU MUCH SOONER. Dan would have still been GIVEN THE BOOT! Because he was always up to his slick shit. But MY SITUATION WOULD HAVE BEEN RESOLVED SOONER, BECAUSE I WOULD NOT HAVE DEVIATED IN ANY WAY FROM WHAT I WAS DOING.
When I reflect on Noni's life, Noni, TECHNICALLY. Should be DEAD. Because she attempted to kill herself with My Mother's sleeping pills and would have succeeded if I wouldn't have been who I am. It was after 6pm. It was dark. I'd just driven us back to the apartment to pick up some stuff and we were going right back to my mother's house to spend Christmas weekend. TECHNICALLY. Her falling asleep in the car WOULD HAVE APPEARED TO BE NORMAL.
But just like the problems that would arise a long time later with Stacey. When I talk to women, especially a woman THAT IS MY WOMAN. I HEAR what she has said AND TAKE IT SERIOUSLY. I PAY ATTENTION. So when Noni fell asleep in the car and I remembered that Noni had NEVER been able to fall asleep in a car since our attempt to get to Uncle Percy's funeral where the tire blew out while she was sleeping in the backseat! She simply CAN'T SLEEP IN CARS ANYMORE BECAUSE OF IT. So that!?
Tipped me off that something WAS NOT. RIGHT. And I was RIGHT. The doctors repeatedly told me that had I simply taken her back to my mom's house and then took her inside and put her in the bed. She'd have died.
This is why I don't take kindly to the things that Stacey has said or done. Because FOR ME. Then I should have simply LEFT YOU TO ROT WHERE YOU WERE. PERIOD. And you wouldn't be doing or talking the shit you say or do now. Because you'd still be in whatever MESS. You were rolling around in with Zane and the rest of your family. I can sit and REMOVE EITHER OF THEM FROM MY LIFE. And My Life continues to go forward, because I didn't have a bunch of silly and stupid shit going on within it. However when I look at THEIR LIVES?
The only thing that makes me worth anything in THEIR LIVES, is the fact THAT I PUSHED THEM TO GO AND ACTUALLY LIVE LIFE AND STOP MAKING FUCKING EXCUSES. Either do it, or honey, you gots ta shut the fuck up with all that yappin, for real. But as I've typed before, women, regardless of race-n-place, they're ALLOWED BY SOCIETY to just keep on yappin and yappin while NOT PRODUCING. It allows for the shitty dynamic of male domination in an unnecessary and COUNTERPRODUCTIVE WAY. And its roots are centered in White Customs and Culture, but, I've already explained all of that and WHY THAT IS. Can't go around colonizing and killing and enslaving everybody and then pretending like you didn't DERAIL EVERYONE'S DEVELOPMENT TO MAKE THEM BOW DOWN TO YOU AND WHATEVER SCHEME YOU GOT WORKIN THIS WEEK!
Either way...?
When you START LIVING YOUR LIFE AT NEARLY 40. Because YOU KEPT MAKING EXCUSES FOR NOT TAKING CARE OF THE ISSUES AND PROBLEMS YOU SHOULD HAVE LONG BEFORE I EVER KNEW YOU!?
Not much room for error with that. And a LOT of BAD HABITS that don't have nearly enough time to be gotten rid of. So? I got the chance to see for myself that Stacey's fear of having to grow up and finally move on in life, powerful. It was powerful. And still is. Fear of change and fear of FINALLY standing on one's own two-feet, can utterly destroy anyone or anything that they are working on. And Stacey reminded me of that very well. Claiming how much one has changed, while readers point out this-this-&-that BASED OFF OF READING YOUR BLOG IN PRESENT-DAY TIMES?
When STRANGERS come along and say "Hey!? DID SHE JUST TYPE THE FACT THAT SHE JUST!?"
^_^
Why yes, yes she did. And she is COMPLETELY OBLIVIOUS TO IT. Because IT IS NORMAL TO HER AND FOR HER, so? Hey I'M NOT GONNA SAY ANYTHING! So? She has a LOT TO HONESTLY LEARN AND EXPERIENCE AND DO. The same way I have TO GET MY SON AND MY BUSINESS PROFITABLE! There is no time to teach a grown woman who honestly LIKES BEING THE WAY SHE IS. For... as long as... things are going her way.
Libras.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
You guys are GREAT FUCKS! But your fuckin minds, yeesh! Then the whole, I LIKED IT IF YOU LIKED IT. The climate just isn't suited for that anymore, too dangerous. Way too dangerous for that. Might as well have a sticker slapped on your forehead that says "I AM SUBJECT TO CHANGE WITHOUT RHYME REASON OR NOTICE! You have been warned."
HAHAHAHAHAH, TRUE! TOO TRUE!
Now!?
HERE IS THE VIDEO;
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