Good.
Morning.
From Philadelphia....
So, as Usual, My Sleep-Schedule has been 100%-shit, shocking I know.
I typed about it briefly, but getting COVID really derailed too much of what I was doing and one of those KEY-ELEMENTS was FINALLY having My Sleep Schedule ON TRACK.
Sunday-nights into Monday-mornings are the absolute worst because I LITERALLY DON'T GET ANY SLEEP AT ALL and then I head into the Dayjob.
So the Sunday-just-passed I was determined to get back on track.
Aging?
Is a PROBLEM.
And yes that seems basic-as-shit, but the Reality is, PENDING ON YOUR HEALTH & PHYSICAL-CONDITION, AGING...!?
Can really complicate everything where it's pig-simple stupid that when You're younger You can go without sleep much better, but with Age?
You REALLY DO NEED TO BE IN SHAPE AND HEALTHY.
Because SIMPLE THINGS CAUSE MASSIVE ISSUES IN SHORT ORDER.
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Ugh, this still isn't coming across like I need it to.
So in this instance I'm gonna stop, and why?
Because I literally just finished working out and the Plan I drew up on Sunday while NOT GETTING ANY SLEEP, is what allowed Me to finally get some sleep LAST NIGHT.
Started at 7:30pm EST, cuz NO SLEEP SUNDAY, and I have to COMPLETELY GET RID OF NO SLEEP SUNDAY'S CUZ THE SHIT ISN'T FUCKIN GOOD FOR ME AND IS NOT ACTUALLY BY CHOICE.
My Sleep-Schedule SHIFTED HARD FROM 3-WEEKS OF COVID-COMA!
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Where I literally SLEPT EVERYDAY FOR THE FIRST 2-WEEKS AND SUFFERED FROM, wait...?
I typed about that.
The ZERO APPETITE was what REALLY STILL GETS ME.
My Body over the last FEW YEARS?
When I become sick, GENERALLY SHUTS DOWN ANY SOLIDS AND IS STRICTLY LIQUID-DIET, which to Me, HIGHLIGHTS I'VE GOT TOO MUCH FUCKIN FAT ON ME. That's HOW I SEE IT.
But I haven't been able to TRANSLATE THAT & STICK WITH IT ONCE I GET PAST WHATEVER ILLNESS I WAS FIGHTING.
And that makes Me angry.
TYPING OF WHICH!?
Yesterday while I was at the Dayjob and trying to get Myself in order from only TWO HOURS SLEEP MONDAY-MADNESS, so that means if You are keeping score?
I had ZERO HOURS OF SLEEP from Sunday to Monday.
TWO WHOLE HOURS SLEEP from Monday to Tuesday.
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This is why I am KNOCKED OUT FRIDAY TO SATURDAY AND SLEEP TILL LATE EVENING SATURDAY, thusssssssssssss, making it IMPOSSIBLE TO GO TO BED THE SUNDAY INTO MONDAY!!!!!
THIS!?
THIS IS WHY CONTROLLING ONE'S OWN TIME IS SO CRUCIAL.
If I was honestly ADVANCING THE WAY I NEED TO BE WITH WE3 THEN I'D ALREADY BE USING THAT AS MY FULL-TIME SOURCE OF INCOME AND THAT WOULD MEAN MY WACKY-ASS SLEEP SCHEDULE WOULD NOT BE AN ISSUE.
Because I OWN-&-CONTROL MY TIME.
Not some White Dayjob-Employer.
This is ALSO WHY Whites and EVERYONE ELSE, as Professor Blacktruth's Moment of Truth from YESTERDAY will highlight!?
MAKE SURE NEVER TO PAY OUT REPARATIONS TO US IN CASH PAYMENTS LIKE THEY DO EVERYONE ELSE.
Because then We can take that money and invest it INTO CREATING OUR OWN FULL-TIME JOBS BASED OFF OF OUR OWN IDEAS, CONTENT, CAPABILITIES!!!!!
And this is NOT UNKNOWN on the part of NON-BLACKS.
I needed to ADD THIS PART BECAUSE IT IS RELEVANT.
AND CRUCIAL.
Fools TRY TO CLAIM "Well if We give Blacks money dey jess gone WASTE DA MON
Shut.
Up.
Because nobody says or does or USES THAT, as an EXCUSE &/OR JUSTIFICATION, when it comes to ANY OTHER RACIAL-GROUP, ANYWHERE.
So shut up.
At least have the Balls &/or Ovaries to be honest and say I don't wanna give You Blacks any money CUZ THEN YA'LL RUN AWAY LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO AND GO DO SHIT FOR YOURSELVES THEN I GOTTA FIGURE OUT WHO THE FUCK I CAN UNDERPAY TO MAKE UP FOR THE FACT THAT I WAS NEVER PAYING YOU BLACKS AN HONEST WAGE FROM FOREVER LONG AGO...!
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And YOU DO, know that, RIGHT?
Enough.
I've gotten My Work Out In AND MORE IMPORTANTLY MY STRETCHES IN.
Mind You that HAD I NOT BEEN DOING THIS FOR OVER A DECADE I'D BE IN SERIOUS TROUBLE WITH MY SPINE BEING WHAT IT IS NOW.
^_^
And yes that is a happy face, because while My Adductor Muscles on the RIGHT SIDE OF MY BODY ARE FUCKED UP!?
You've seen Me type since the start of this Blog the Fact that, STRETCHES AND WORKOUT IS DONE, annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnndddddddddddddddddd, then become ENRAGED when this particular group of TRAITORS, rebels and I have to stop.
And I've typed about this too AND MADE IT CLEAR WHAT THE SURGICAL PROCEDURE IS I'D HAVE TO UNDERGO TO FIX THIS PROBLEM, where...?
It ISN'T.
GUARANTEED TO FIX THE ISSUE.
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So I type THAT, to ANSWER THAT QUESTION, in case You've NO IDEA what the Fuck I'm typing about.
I'm not just CHOOSING TO STAY FUCKED UP.
I've also typed about a number of brain-related issues AND ABILITIES I HAVE, where in the Past I've been put to sleep and then had medical professionals FREAK OUT, because I begin ACTING & REACTING WHEN I'M ACTUALLY SEDATED!!!!!
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It is NOT FUN.
So I DO NOT TRY ANYTHING THAT IS ANY MAJOR SURGERY PROCEDURES BECAUSE I'VE ALREADY HAD ENOUGH CLOSE CALLS WITH MINOR PROCEDURES!
That too has been typed about in regards to My Sleep Paralysis.
Where I developed THIS LOVELY NIGHTMARE ISSUE AS A CHILD... with a VERY LOVING MOTHER, who was NOT.
So TO PROTECT MYSELF I LITERALLY HAD TO LEARN HOW TO SLEEP AS LIGHTLY AS POSSIBLE!
SO THAT SHE COULDN'T GET THE JUMP ON ME!!!!!
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Annnnnnnnnnnnnd the Rest is easy to read on HOW I ended up with this DISORDER where it's PERMANENT, lovely.
So TO COMBAT THAT I HAD TO THEN TRAIN MYSELF ON HOW TO FUNCTION WHILE IN THE MIDST OF SUFFERING THROUGH IT, which has produced some...?
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YEAH I WOULDN'T RECOMMEND IT!
But the Bottom line is I learned HOW TO ACTUALLY SEE AND HEAR AROUND ME WHILE ASLEEP!
Which is CREEPY, TERRIFYING AND A TESTAMENT TO MY OWN WILL TO MAKE SHIT WORK EVEN WHEN I TECHNICALLY SHOULDN'T BE ABLE TO.
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I've shocked the shit outta many a person when I've woken up and EITHER JUMPED IN OR RESTARTED A CONVO THEY WERE HAVING AS I WAS SLEEPING NEXT TO OR AROUND THEM!
It should also be obvious that DUE TO ALL OF THIS?
When I AM ACTUALLY AT MY NORMAL WEIGHT I AM ACTUALLY AN INSOMNIAC, great.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH, OKAY LEMME GET MOVING!
Cuz now I just remembered a few friends from over the Years laughing when someone would ask Me "How are You doing!?"
Then THEY'D LAUGH and say "He hates that phrase because if He actually TOLD YOU then You'd be like 'I didn't need to know all that', BUT FOR HIM!? HAHAHAHAHAHAH! That phrase takes on a whole 'nother-meaning!"
THIS IS WHY I HAVE TYPED AND KEEP TYPING!?!?!?
HOLY-SHIT I ACTUALLY MADE IT TO FUCKIN 50-YEARS OLD, HA!!!!!!!
Oh yeah, ask Me again why I was sooooh happy when Whites decided to attack Me and My Friends because We are Blacks?
Heh-heh-heh, the Look of Confusion on Their Faces, when I, most of all, was...?
Pleased by Their Behavior.
And it was because They'd made Themselves...?
Justifiable targets.
By trying to target Us first....
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