Did you call the ring Stacey gave you a piece of shit BECAUSE YOU KNEW SHE WAS STILL FUCKING AROUND BEHIND YOUR BACK?
That would be CORRECT!
I'm not someone who turns tail and runs at the first sign of problems, but she knew the GRAVITY OF MY SITUATION! BECAUSE I TOLD HER ALL OF IT IN DETAIL! And she saw.
FOR.
HER.
SELF!
That I'd been COMPLETELY OPEN AND HONEST WITH HER FROM DAY-1 OF OUR VERY FIRST MEETING! I will not, I REFUSE! To be ASHAMED OF BEING HONEST AND OPEN BECAUSE OF THE COWARDICE OF OTHERS! I KNOW who I am AND WHAT I'VE DONE! FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE, FOR GOOD OR FOR BAD! I DON'T WANT NOR NEED! ANYONE'S ACCEPTANCE OF THE BLACKMAN THAT I AM!
It is the loss of TRUST! That can permanently change a person one way or another! And being able to TRUST THE PERSON YOU SHARE YOUR BED WITH IS CRITICAL! This is why I was able to EASILY KNOW that you'd set up your own daughter FOR FAILURE! Because you MADE SURE to MAKE HER COMFORTABLE WITH THE MAN YOU WERE CHEATING WITH AGAINST HER OWN FATHER!
Then you drag that TRASH! Into OUR RELATIONSHIP!? Yet you run your mouth and flap your GUMS! About how YOU were WRONGED!? I'll type it AGAIN. You knew you'd had an affair and you KNEW I wouldn't have BOTHERED WITH YOU IF I'D HAVE KNOWN ABOUT IT! But what makes this whole thing even more BIZARRE AND STUPID! Is that you decided to CHEAT ON ME WITH THIS FOOL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! Where you had him call my apartment and the moment I decided to REMIND HIM THAT I KNOW ABOUT THE TWO OF YOU HE FUCKIN IMMEDIATELY DITCHED YOU!
What in the world!?
YO!? Who the FUCK! Calls a man's apartment and starts "taking up for they girl" till they're reminded that "they girl" used to be the guy on the other end's and that I KNOW YOU TWO FUCKS WERE CHEATING BEHIND MY FUCKIN BACK AND HE'S MARRIED! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHA! IT WAS!? Hold up, hold up. Because I'm sitting here typing this and I'm saying to myself EVEN AS I TYPE! This guy KNOWS that Stacey is vain-n-dumb-as-shit! When you fuckin stroke her goddamn massive ego! So he's SO USED TO dealing with PEOPLE who let him, wiat, look I typed that wrong! HAHAHAHAHA, because I honestly WISH I'd have recorded my conversation with him SO ALL OF YOU COULD HEAR THIS FUCKIN MORON!
And I'm like, this guy is just like Zane.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh, that's right.
Stacey likes the Pretty-Boy's.
Pfft, I ain't pretty.
But she likes her Pretty-Boy's PRETTY STUPID!
And THEY IN TURN LIKE HER TO BE PRETTY STUPID!
-_-
Now?
FIGHT!
And we allllllllllllllllllllllllllllll know that when women engage in one-up's-manship with dudes who are STRICTLY TROLLING THEM FOR PUSSY!?
Thee MINUTE, I reminded him of WHO HIS DUMB ASS DECIDED TO CALL!?
He fuckin dropped that Black Knight bullshit he was talking IMMEDIATELY.
Just...!?
I was. Not even gonna lie people. I was MORE UPSET over the fact that, this?
This!? Is who you claim is YOUR SOULMATE!? This is who you've been WASTING TIME CHASING!? This is who you cheated on me with. A fuckin fool who easily shows he's got pieces of ass-n-pussy JUST LIKE YOU! All over wherever he travels to. Ugh! Idiot. Even typing this shit right now I was TOTALLY FUCKIN DISAPPOINTED IN HER! It's like, really?
Wow.
And he BOLTED.
The moment I reminded him of the reality of who the fuck he was talking to, his whole fuckin style changed. Whole language switched up, because he straight BITCHED-UP!
"Nah, nah, I ain't callin bout that I ain't callin bout that! I callin bout Stacey! I'm callin bout business, this about business!"
Really?
So you not only cheated on me with a married man but now I can clearly hear that he's a fuckin con-artist too, great. Just fuckin great. This fuckin guy is exactly like I fuckin thought;
Coon-ass.
So you had some pussy call my fuckin apartment and he supposedly was doing all this TAKING UP FOR YOU till I reminded him that he is a married man with a child and he interfered in my relationship with you and then alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll of a sudden...?All that bullshit he was talking when I was standing there PLAYING THE FUCKIN ROLE OF VILLAGE IDIOT! Now? Well? Now he doesn't give a fuck about you, really?
So yes, Anonymous Anna, I called the ring a piece of shit because we were supposed to GET MARRIED at the airport NOT GET ENGAGED! And WE COULDN'T because she sat up there and bald faced LIE TO ME WEEKS PRIOR and didn't even know I'd caught her!
Again!
I still let her come see me, because I needed her to see one last time that all that shit she would end up talking and has talked about "It wouldn't work" and blah blah, yo? Who the fuck travels over 24 hours 3x's to go somewhere that they ARE MISERABLE AT! >_< And it is lies like this that made me realize that I was right when I told her right after she finally got the divorce;
"Go spend time with your kids. Go spend time BY YOURSELF. You've been with Zane all this time and up underneath some man for most of your life! Go and spend time getting to know your kids and yourself and just take a break! Go figure out what you wanna do with yourself and your life."
I should have STUCK WITH THAT and FORCED HER to spend time by herself!
But you know what...?
She'd have gone looking for that fool at that point, if he wasn't already around, I don't know. Because she made it so that I'm left to wonder whether he was around the entire time and she was simply keeping him on the back-burner or some other shit. I don't know.
Like they say the hardest enemy to guard yourself against is someone you trust.
And...? As? A footnote. Some of you reading this may think, look at this guy? What's up with the way he's coming off, yes. Look at the way I am coming off. If there is one thing that everyone from Master Malcolm X to Master Cress Welsing pointed out it is the fact that the loss of confidence by Blackmen and in Blackmen by Their Blackwomen, is a major reason why things are the way that they are. It was my moving away from understanding that a confident and RESULTS ORIENTED BLACKMAN, instantly brings trouble for him & to him, BASED ON THE WAY THAT THE WORLD HAS BECOME FOR US. I stepped away from that in favor of the waste of time that I spent trying to Act White with Noni, which landed me in this mess with Her. And ultimately led to Stacey believing she could play me for a fool, too.
Unlike either of them I have actually produced and tasted success. And it was my compromising stupidity of trying to go along to get along that led to all of this, even with Stacey. As a man, particularly as a Blackman, we are judged on did we live up to Our Potential and if not, why? Let me explain one thing QUICKLY. It is NOT for Stacey to MAKE SURE I live up to My Potential.
It is mine.
I don't want. Or need.
A pity party.
What I NEED IS TO LIVE UP TO MY POTENTIAL.
And to do that, that means that I can't sit and go round-n-round with any woman who has her own agenda while claiming otherwise. If there is a lesson that Stacey taught me and reinforced for me it is that being honest and open saves a lot of people time and energy and the worst part is that I knew that and I'd stepped away from it because I was tired of being told I was too abrupt. Or too, inconsiderate. Or lacked understanding. But it was one of My Sworn Brother's who reminded me that "Who was telling you that dumb shit, brother? Who was it...?" and I realized then and he told me "The people who say that to you are always people who need you to lower your guard so they can get you to 'let them in'. They love who you are as a person from the outside and wanna be with you as your woman. But they know they don't have the tools to either earn or keep you as a man, so? They need you to lower your guard, so they can get in. Otherwise? You'll just ignore them like I've seen you do with anyone that you know isn't worth your time. Your weakness, Brother, is women. Which is typical for men like you, regardless of race-n-place. From here on out, any chick even seems suspicious? Move on. Because you got a lot of ground to make up. And no more room for trying to make accommodations for her. If she's in then she's in and the moment she shows that she's out then get rid of her immediately! No hesitation. No 20-questions. No more giving bitches chances and sitting and listening to whatever their reasoning is for whatever bullshit they just pulled. In. Or Out!? And leave it at that and you'll be fine!"
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