And Yes... I Saw You....

It does not matter how quickly you jump on and jump off. The blogsite tracks traffic from whichever country you are in. I saw the numbers last night and I opted NOT to say anything. I am not one to willingly torture Myself for no good reason when I know I don't need to and I don't WANT TO put myself through unnecessary aggravation. It is times like this and even with just now talking to Reek on the phone just now, with what he's put himself through.

His lack of life experience shone through loud and clear just now and his lack of understanding and youth, also highlighted why things just went south for him and I really could see the fact that at his age I was well-ahead of the game and pissed away My Experiences, Knowledge and Wisdom. In hopes that I would NOT HAVE TO BE as cut-n-dry as I was in My High School days & younger. However in the midst of all of that, I simply can't shy away from the fact that part of the reason why even as I keep moving forward now? Even with the losses and victories there is one trait I don't have. One fault that even Brother Art reminded me of last night along with My Nephew Matt.

I am thankful for the fact that faults and all, one fault I DO NOT HAVE.
Is Cowardice.

And I need to thank MY FAMILY for pushing Me and Raising Me to understand that nothing of any worth is built by cowards or maintained by cowards. I have had to learn the hard way that cowardice is a condition that a person has to face up to themselves and face down at some point or another. It is NOT SOMETHING that I can do FOR THEM. It is something that THEY MUST DO FOR THEMSELVES. Last night Brother Art and Nephew Matt confirmed the fact that everything is going exactly as I'd told them over the last decade. And all I need do now is simply keep going and I will REGAIN MY SON. And regain My Proper Place IN HIS LIFE, as well as WITHIN MY OWN....

And yes....

I saw you up on here, ironically.
Because I was over My Sworn-Brother's House last night.
Otherwise?
I would have been asleep or something like that.
I certainly would not have been up during the time you were up on here.

I wonder, is that divine intervention, sheer luck, fate, or some other shit?
Either way...?
For whatever it is worth.

Good Luck, Stacey....