Good Morning Son
So it is 10:18am EST and I am at the Dayjob. I'm wondering how YOUR DAY IS GOING TODAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY. I am hoping that things started off GREAT! And that Your Mother has been doing right by You. I'm not exactly pleased to be typing that, because She's not supposed to be doing anything where I am in a position to have to hope that She's "doing Right", by My Own Son.
This is one of the reasons why I am continuing to work hard to grow Williams Works Ebooks and actually give You the Means to not have to endure and go through the nonsense that I had to go through as a Young Black-American Man in an overwhelmingly White-American dominated workforce.
The above FACT.
Is a CLEAR CUT INDICATION that We as Black-Americans DO NOT ACTUALLY HAVE A CUSTOMS-&-CULTURE CORRECTLY BUILT AROUND OUR NEEDS AND WANTS AND STRICTLY FOR OUR NEEDS AND WANTS ALONE.
Correct Black-American Customs-&-Culture would automatically have Self-Sufficiency and Autonomy, particularly away from Whites. As a CORE PRINCIPLE based on what has actually happened to Our People both Here and Globally.
Now lemme quickly POINT OUT!
That White-Americans have been and CONTINUE TO WORK OVERTIME TO DISRUPT, DISCOURAGE AND DESTROY OUR COLLECTIVE EFFORTS TO DO THIS. And that is because IN ALL HONESTY this empire was NEVER INTENDED FOR US OR OUR PROSPERITY.
I'm quite certain that Your Mother has never stated this to You and never will. Which will OF COURSE set You Up the same way I was initially set up by My Own Mother who decided that not telling Me The Truth of Where We Are, How We Got Here, Why, When AND THEN WHAT I SHOULD BE LEARNING AND DOING AS A BLACK BOY SO THAT I CAN ADDRESS AND CORRECT THESE PROBLEMS.
Is a massive critical-flaw in BLACK PARENTING OVERALL.
And a BIG REASON why We as Black-Americans ARE NOT SUCCEEDING AS A COLLECTIVE.
And I need to TYPE THIS that it is NOT ONLY BLACK-AMERICAN WOMEN WHO ARE NOT PROPERLY INFORMING AND RAISING AND REARING BLACK-AMERICAN CHILDREN. BUT IT IS ALSO WE AS BLACK-AMERICAN MEN WHO ARE FAILING YOU AND OTHER BLACK-AMERICAN CHILDREN AS WELL.
By NOT RAISING YOU IN THE REALITY OF OUR SITUATION, but instead CHOOSING to TRY to raise You in the DELUSIONAL-DREAM of Martin Luther King jr..
This FACT is one of the reasons why Your Mother and I were already headed to divorce. Because while I knew better and should NOT HAVE CHANGED MY STANCE ON HOW I DO THINGS AND WHAT I KNOW REGARDING OUR PEOPLE HERE. Unfortunately Your Mother was DESPERATE TO STAY IN THE DELUSIONAL-DREAM AT ALL COSTS. Even as She was constantly complaining to Me about how She was being UNFAIRLY WOEFULLY UNDERPAID AT HER WHITE-CORPORATE JOB. While HER WHITEWOMAN COUNTERPARTS got PAID MORE.
But did CONSIDERABLY LESS WORK.
LESS COMPETANTLY THAN YOUR MOTHER!
Williams Works?
Was something that I started way back BEFORE YOU WERE BORN.
And then finally began to invest into JUST PRIOR TO YOUR MOTHER AND I DECIDING TO GET MARRIED AND BRING YOU INTO THE WORLD!
The Things that are POSSIBLE on the Create Function of Spreadshirt, is EXACTLY what I told Your Mother I NEEDED TO DESIGN MY WEBSITE FOR.
However?
Your Mother unfortunately became extremely concerned that as My Work INTO WILLIAMS WORKS, was progressing. That SOMEHOW SHE'D BE LEFT BEHIND.
By this point I was CONSTANTLY WORKING BOTH AT THE THEN DAYJOB AND THEN WHEN I GOT HOME!
By THIS POINT?
You were born.
And instead of HER understanding that I was doing all of this FOR US AS A FAMILY.
Unfortunately FOR ALL OF US.
All She Saw was I was PLOTTING MY OWN COURSE AND WAS IN DANGER OF FINALLY HAVING THE POWER TO CURTAIL HER RANDOM FITS OF DRAMA AND FOOLISHNESS.
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This is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT!
Extremely so!
Because instead of My Wife, Your Mother, seeing My Hard Work AS FURTHER PROOF THAT I NEEDED TO MAKE IT SO OUR FAMILY HAD ITS OWN AUTONOMY, instead...?
She saw it all as a PROBLEM.
Where I would ULTIMATELY BE SELF-EMPLOYED.
Not have ANYONE ABOVE ME EXCEPT FOR ME.
Not have to WORK FOR ANY WHITE PEOPLE, which was something She was showing would lead to A MAJOR DIVISION BETWEEN US.
Because She had NO PROBLEMS COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW SHE WAS BEING TREATED UNFAIRLY BY HER WHITE-EMPLOYER AND COWORKERS, BUT!?
Unfortunately I had already made too many excuses for My Wife's Behavior when it came to what She Found Acceptable.
Meaning?
She had no problems with complaining about Unfair Treatment from Whites.
But never in Her Life did She ever do anything about any of it.
So to Her, complaining while never doing anything was normal to Her.
I on the Other hand...?
No.
And this was part of what Attracted Your Mother to Me.
But it was solely so She could have Me to run to when it came to Dealing With the Whites She Routinely Worked For.
Actually getting Away from Them only became important to Her after She saw My Determination with Williams Works, where She saw that YOU, AS YOU SHOULD BE.
Was My Primary Motivation.
To Give YOU a BETTER LIFE AND BETTER OPPORTUNITIES THAN EITHER OF US HAD.
She was completely uncomfortable with the Idea AND THE REALITY OF ME, not having ANYONE EXCEPT FOR CUSTOMERS TO ANSWER TO.
She honestly had nightmares ABOUT MY SUCCESS.
Which was unfortunately, extremely telling.
Because for My Success to CAUSE HER TO HAVE NIGHTMARES, meant that SHE DID NOT SEE MY SUCCESS AS HER SUCCESS ALSO.
Thee Worst Part is thee Fact that I had PLENTY OF WARNING SIGNS of Her Warped Way of Looking at The World and at Looking at Things In General.
But I pressed forward anyway clinging to delusional beliefs centered on EMOTIONS.
Instead of BASED ON THE FACTS OF THE MATTER.
This post is going to be YOUR FIRST TEST of whether or not You KNOW how to accept information that You may not LIKE. I'm under NO DELUSION that typing this could POTENTIALLY be off-putting to You and for You because You grew up with Your Mother, however...?
Your Mother, is a Woman.
She is a Female.
And SHE CAN, at least far longer than You ever will, IGNORE AND REFUSE FACTS AND REALITY FOR DELUSIONS AND ESCAPISM.
Because Whites HAVE BUILT UP A TEMPORARY ILLUSORY, DELAYED-ACCOUNTABILITY ACCOUNT FOR BLACK-AMERICAN WOMEN, and?
For Women In General.
Which is a deadly and somewhat OBVIOUS, but!?
The TEMPTATION.
To be able TO FORESTALL OR EVEN OUTRIGHT EVADE ACCOUNTABILITY...!?
Where?
Like I just typed above.
It is ILLUSORY, it is AN ILLUSION.
It is the same as taking out a LOAN that HAS NO CLEAR TERMS AND CONDITIONS EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT IT CAN BECOME DUE AT ONCE WITHOUT NOTICE.
SMART-BLACK-AMERICAN-WOMEN?
WISE, Black-American Women.
DON'T GET CAUGHT UP IN THIS nor do They Fall for this Deadly and Dangerous Trap.
However?
Desperation.
Desires that are better left tabled and AWAY FROM DECISION-MAKING?
Too many of Our Women ACTIVELY DECIDE TO ACCEPT THIS DELAY IN ACCOUNTABILITY.
Again Son, this is A TEMPORARY REPRIEVE.
But it is something that CAN SEEMINGLY be advantageous, AT THE TIME. And that is THE APPEAL of too many of Our Women, running to involve Foreigners, Non-Black-Americans, particularly Whites.
In Our Internal Affairs.
Williams Works Ebooks and Williams Works Webshop, were CONCEPTS that I had already laid out and PITCHED TO YOUR MOTHER AND THEN BEGAN DEVELOPING. She always hated the amount of TIME IT TOOK for Me to get work done, which is how EVERYTHING WORKS WHEN YOU ARE SELF-EMPLOYED AND/OR STARTING A BUSINESS.
It is NO DIFFERENT THAN WHEN YOU WORK FOR OTHERS. The Person WHO OWNS THAT BUSINESS. Had to START OFF WITH NOTHING, even when They are White. They STILL HAVE TO come up with whatever the business is. INVEST TIME AND MONEY AND ENERGY INTO. And MAKE GOOD ENOUGH DECISIONS SO THAT THE BUSINESS GROWS AND BEGINS TO ULTIMATELY TURN A PROFIT.
I highly doubt Your Mother has EVER talked to You about OWNING YOUR OWN BUSINESS. Why it is IMPORTANT for You as a Young Black-American Boy to STRIVE FOR THIS AND/OR TO WORK WITH OTHER YOUNG BLACK-AMERICAN BOYS TO BUILD YOUR OWN BUSINESSES AND EARN YOUR OWN MONEY.
Ownership.
Is Everything.
You and I will have plenty to talk about when I sit down and lay it out AND SHOW YOU how much money went out of MY POCKET into the hands OF RENTAL APARTMENT AND ROOM, OWNERS.
Where I OWN NOTHING IN THE END.
Versus when Your Mother and I had OUR HOUSE.
WHICH I SECURED.
AND WE PAID MORTGAGE FOR.
And THE BENEFITS OF BEING A HOME-OWNER VERSUS BEING A RENTER.
Again?
Black-American PARENTS.
Particularly Black-American Mothers, are NOT TALKING TO THEIR SONS ABOUT THESE ISSUES AND/OR PUSHING THEM AND PAIRING THEM WITH MEN WHO OWN AND CONTROL AND CAN TEACH THEIR SONS HOW AND WHY IT IS IMPORTANT TO OWN AND CONTROL, versus renting and BORROWING.
For the Record?
As a Prime Example.
I was riding with Your Grandmother on My Side of the Family, My Mother.
And She was taking two of the Neighborhood kids with Us to the store.
The Young Girl was about 12 or 13.
And Her Little Brother was about 8 or 9.
They were playing with toys in the backseat and the Young Girl says to Her Brother "It's better to BORROW TOYS FROM the Kids up the street!" and She was loud and proud of what She'd said.
But Her Little Brother immediately reminded Her that "But those are Their Toys. And We always have to give Them back! And I'm tired of that I want My Own Toys!"
So My Mother and I were listening to Them and the Sister then says "NO! Because IT'S EASIER TO JUST BORROW THEIRS! Mom said it's easier and IT IS!"
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Now...?
Now My Mother is getting uncomfortable.
Because the Girl OPENLY ADMITTED THAT HER MOM IS THE ONE WHO CONVINCED HER THAT BORROWING IS BETTER! While HER BROTHER has CLEARLY UNDERSTOOD THAT WHEN YOU BORROW FROM OTHERS THEN YOU HAVE NO SAY OR CONTROL OVER ANYTHING BECAUSE WHATEVER IT IS IS NOT YOURS!
So the Little Boy then starts saying "But They're their toys, They're not even Ours!?"
His Sister than starts arguing that THAT IS EVEN BETTER BECAUSE IF THEY BREAK THEN THEY DON'T HAVE TO REPLACE THE TOYS!
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Now?
At this point My Mother is trying to drive Her Car PLUS HIDE UNDER THE SEAT! Because Her and I HAD ARGUED FOR YEARS where SHE TRIED TO SAY that it is OKAY for Black-Americans TO INDIVIDUALLY DO WHATEVER THEY WANTED TO DO...!
Till She was forced to live around Black People who'd BEEN ALLOWED TO BELIEVE THAT AS WELL. And, well? Her Neighborhood went downhill in a hurry. And then She saw that without Black-American Men IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD WHO ACT AND THINK LIKE ALONG THE LINES OF BLACK-THOUGHT LIKE I DO, well...?
It doesn't take long before the Rugged-Individualistic Black-Americans BRING THEIR DISORDERLY MOB-MENTALITY TO BEAR WITH DISASTEROUS RESULTS ON WHEREVER THEY ARE AT!
Their Mentality is centered STRICTLY AROUND THEM AND THEM ALONE. Thus as far as THEY ARE CONCERNED? If I wanna play music loud and out the window AT 12-MIDNIGHT then THAT'S MY BUSINESS! Never mind it is now Monday Morning and THE BLACK PEOPLE IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD HAVE TO GO TO WORK IN THE MORNING!
And They Do Such Things because THEY HAVE NO CONCERN ABOUT THE IMPACT THEIR INDIVIDUAL BEHAVIOR IS HAVING ON THE REST OF THE PEOPLE AROUND THEM. Till someone does something THAT DISRUPTS WHAT THEY WANT TO DO AT WHATEVER MOMENT WHEN THE TABLES GET TURNED ON THEM.
My Mother.
Had Foolishly Believed that Me, TELLING OTHER BLACK PEOPLE WHAT TO DO AND WHY, WHEN, HOW, AND WHERE, was wrong. She had NO CONCERN NOR INTEREST IN WHY I WAS DOING WHAT I WAS DOING. And Me Explaining What I was Doing and Why I was Doing It, meant nothing to Her.
Till Her Neighborhood Collapsed.
And then She was SURROUNDED BY Black People with HER LACK OF COMMUNITY AND DISREGARD FOR GROUP COHESIVENESS.
Now all of a Sudden, She was concerned.
Understand that unfortunately for all of Us, Your Mother took this same approach.
Till it became a problem.
Meanwhile...?
The Little Girl in the backseat begins to BROWBEAT Her Little Brother and shut Him Up. She starts ARGUING WITH HIM that BORROWING is BETTER THAN OWNING. Thus She is PASSING ON WRONG-MINDED MENTALITY that EVENTUALLY BOTH OF THEM WILL PAY FOR. My Mother DECIDES TO KEEP QUIET, what a shocker.
Instead of CORRECTING the Little Girl.
I of course am now the last person in this car that can CORRECT this Foolishness.
I am FULLY-AWARE that the Moment I correct this Little Girl I will by Default become and will be seen as, the Bad Guy.
So of course I went on ahead and said NOTHING.
That's Right.
I said.
NOTHING.
Not a Word.
Not a Peep.
Not a SYLLABLE.
Nada.
And it was because I was tired of constantly DOING MY DUE DILIGENCE TO PREVENT PROBLEMS BEFORE THEY HAPPEN.
And then being UNDERMINED.
I will tell You Right Now that Me Deciding to Not Speak, WAS WRONG.
1000%.
WRONG.
And I would CORRECT THIS MISTAKE a Few Weeks Later!
And I had a LONG TALK with both the Little Girl and Her Younger Brother.
I also began interacting and talking to Their OLDER Siblings who were still in high school.
And Why?
Because that is what We're SUPPOSED TO DO AS BLACK-AMERICAN MEN.
But I understood that Me Setting the Record Straight and Setting THESE CHILDREN STRAIGHT, is NOT ENOUGH.
What is NEEDED are the funds TO BE ABLE TO CREATE A PLACE AND PLACES WHERE BLACK-AMERICAN CHILDREN CAN BE PROPERLY EDUCATED. Even if There is DYSFUNCTION IN THEIR HOMES.
And for That?
It REQUIRES MONEY.
And FOR THAT!?
It REQUIRES A MEANS TO GENERATE THIS MONEY THAT IS OWNED AND CONTROLLED BY US!
It is 11:51am EST.
I am doing My Dayjob while Typing this To You.
I stayed up again last night into the early-am hours of this morning.
To Work on Williams Works Ebooks.
My Fledgling Business, that will GROW INTO OUR FAMILY'S BUSINESS.
My Job.
Is NO DIFFERENT THAN ANY OTHER FATHER'S JOB.
Regardless of My Shortcomings and Failures.
I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO GIVE YOU A BETTER CHANCE OF OPPORTUNITIES THAN I HAD AND!?
Hand You A BATON OF ACTUAL WORTH FOR WHEN THE TIME COMES WHERE YOU HAVE LEARNED FROM MY MISTAKES!
Chosen A GOOD BLACK-AMERICAN WOMAN TO MARRY AND START A FAMILY WITH!
And can give Them.
The Baton I gave to You.
In Even BETTER CONDITION THAN WHEN I GAVE IT TO YOU.
There is more on this that I want to Type, BUT!?
Good Sense says to stop here because THIS INFORMATION is meant STRICTLY FOR YOUR EARS.
When We are FACE.
To Face.
Once Again.
And that Day is getting closer and closer.
Closer.
And Closer....
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