Happy Birthday... My Son....

20-years old.

How the time flies....

I finished my last physical-therapy session on Friday and I was reminded repeatedly to "not try to do everything all at once" and?

  

To remember that I cannot do things at the breakneck pace that I used to.

Heh.

Isn't that oh soh true.

All I've been preoccupied with this month is Your Birthday, as I should be. This is a funny, ass-backwards empire, that We live in. Talking about things it doesn't actually hold true to, is par for the course. And the Reality of this place is that ALL THAT MATTERS IS MONEY.

What YOU DO WITH THAT MONEY, is on You, BUT OBTAINING ENOUGH OF IT...?

Will determine whether you literally live or die here AND HOW QUICKLY, or quietly, it can happen.

This place that We live in?

Talks about "honoring troops" and "veterans".

But much of its HOMELESS population is made up of those same troops and veterans. Where they only become important AT SPECIFIC TIMES, especially...?

If Our People are highlighting the Fallacy that this empire is built on, was built on, and continues to pile more bodies on top of to MAINTAIN, itself.

It has taken Me YOUR ENTIRE LIFE to finally finish the vehicle I SHOULD HAVE HAD, as My Mother has since found out. Wayyyyyyyyyy back in 8th-grade.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

But even My Mother reminded Me recently "Your...? Patience...? Is almost as frightening as Your Memory...."

And I have been told By Your Mother on almost EVERY OCCASION that I've "talked with Her".

That you are VERY MUCH.

Like Me.

Where the Irony is...?

Even though I told her HOW I BECAME THE WAY THAT I WAS...?

She REPEATED THAT PROCESS ANYWAY.

The Irony is that My Mother.

INTENTIONALLY STRIPPED ME AWAY FROM MY FATHER AS WELL.

And...?

Not because she had any justification to.

That...?

Would have AT LEAST.

Made Her Decision make sense, no.

She did so for the exact same reason that Your Mother stripped You away from Me.

Fear.

You see...!?

A PERSON, not just a woman, or a man, but, A PERSON.

Who actually is...?

WEAK OF CHARACTER.

And JUDGEMENT.

Is not going to stay around anyone who isn't but for so long, nor will said person or people stay connected to a former significant other who IS NOT LIKE THEM AS WELL, when things, finally reach THEIR RIGHTFUL CONCLUSION.

When the Person who has SOME SORT OF ACTUAL CHARACTER?

Finally realizes that they are with someone WHO HAS NO CHARACTER.

No VALUES OR BELIEFS OR ANYTHING THAT ACTUALLY MAKES THEM...?

Who they CLAIM TO BE.

Jason Black CORRECTLY POINTED OUT that the FASTEST WAY FOR A WOMAN TO LOSE HER MAN IS FOR HER TO DESTROY THE IDEAL THAT HER MAN HAD OF HER.

And I'm paraphrasing here, but that's...?

Close enough.

A woman WHO KNOWS that she's fucked up and her man is fed up, because of what White-Americans have done, AND WHAT WE AS BLACK-AMERICANS, MYSELF INCLUDED, HAVE NOT DONE...?

The Environment IS EXTREMELY BENEFICIAL for a Woman with No Character. To be able to take out her negative-emotions, reactions, on Her Man, when he finally says "I've had enough. This isn't working. And it's time for Us to go Our Separate Ways." the climate?

Here in Nazi-America.

IS PERFECT.

For a Woman to be able to LASH OUT.

Because she is upset and hurt, because, it's over. The Relationship, regardless of whatever kind it is, has come to an End. And it is THE MAN. Who is ENDING IT, not Her. That within itself has also become A HUGE PROBLEM. And mind you...?

That is ALSO BY DESIGN.

Not accident.

Whites in positions of power along with their various races of slaves, sure do have SO MUCH ENERGY. In INTENTIONALLY JURY-RIGGING THINGS TO FAIL, but this too is NOT AN ACCIDENT.

It is DELIBERATE.

Because White-American Society HAS HAD CENTURIES TO DEFINE AND REFINE ITSELF.

While OUR SOCIETY...?

Has had NO TIME FOR ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR SHEER SURVIVAL, regardless of how WandaVision like, people will LIE AND CLAIM OTHERWISE.

My Point is THIS...?

If I can TYPE TO YOU ANYTHING...?

It is this, AS A YOUNG BLACK-AMERICAN MAN...?

SPEND YOUR YOUTH ESTABLISHING YOURSELF FIRST.

The Funny thing is I GOT IT BACKWARDS.

And I GOT IT BACKWARDS because I KNEW what kind of talent I HAD AND HAVE, but I COMPLETELY DISREGARDED THE FACT THAT WE DON'T HAVE NEARLY ENOUGH OF THE INFRASTRUCTURE NEEDED, where...?

I had NOTHING TO PLUG INTO.

So I was REMINDED YESTERDAY, by Your Uncle, about A FACT that I pointed out TO YOUR MOTHER, when you were a baby and she was carrying out and running up credit card debts and God knows whatever else, but...!?

I told Her...?

JUST HOW ABNORMAL WE WERE.

HER AND I, AS BLACK-AMERICANS.

Because NEITHER OF US HAD DEGREES.

Yet We were ACTUALLY DOING OKAY.

Not WELL.

But okay.

AND...?

I'd CORRECTLY SEEN WHERE THE INTERNET WAS HEADED.

And I WANTED TO INVEST IN THAT.

And she...?

Wanted nothing to do with any of it.

And she ULTIMATELY ADMITTED that she knew that I would become successful, but it unnerved her, which...?

Really woke me up to the Fact that I'd SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP in having gone as far as I'd gone with her, unfortunately.

Insecure Women?

WILL INTENTIONALLY DESTROY A SECURE MAN.

REGARDLESS OF RACE AND PLACE.

Now...?

Before I type another word, LOOK AT WHAT I HAVE TYPED SO FAR...?

And SEE IF YOU CAN CONNECT THE DOTS ALREADY...?

Yes?

No?

Maybe?

I DON'T KNOW, and why, BECAUSE I HAD NO HAND IN RAISING YOU WHATSOEVER, which ties even further into My Point.

I've had to come TO THE DISTURBING CONCLUSION that Single-Parent Women WILL INTENTIONALLY NOT REAR-&-RAISE THEIR SONS, not their daughters, BUT SPECIFICALLY THEIR SONS.

They WILL NOT TELL THEM THE TRUTH.

NOR PREPARE THEM FOR.

THE NATURE OF WOMEN.

It's something I have NOT BEEN HAPPY TO SEE.

But all too often I have encountered TOO MANY BLACK-AMERICAN MALES who have admitted to Me or have talked about how the Fact that THEIR FATHER WAS IN THEIR LIFE?

He AT LEAST ATTEMPTED TO BE HONEST ABOUT THE WORLD AROUND THEM, but when talking to and looking at Myself and other Black-American Men FAR TOO OFTEN WE WERE TOLD FLAT OUT LIES.

Particularly?

ABOUT WOMEN.

A MALE?

WHO FOCUSES ON BUILDING HIMSELF UP FIRST?

ACQUIRES THE RESOURCES THAT WILL ALLOW FOR HIM TO FINANCE HIS GOALS AND DAILY-OPERATIONS.

This HELPS TO INSULATE HIM AGAINST ALL MANNER OF ILLS.

But IT ALSO CUTS A STRICT LINE FOR HIM IN REGARD TO HOW FAR HE WILL OR WON'T GO WHEN IT COMES TO HIS CONTINUED ABILITY TO MAINTAIN HIMSELF.

When dealing with Females.

This is the Reason why so many of Our Own Women COMPLAIN ABOUT THOSE OF US WHO HAVE MONEY AND ARE STABLE.

They complain BECAUSE THESE BLACK-AMERICAN MEN WON'T SIT STILL TO LISTEN TO SOB-STORIES ABOUT HOW HARD LIFE WAS FOR THE BLACK-AMERICAN WOMAN HE IS DATING.

WHILE SAID BLACK-AMERICAN WOMAN'S BEHAVIOR IS SABOTEUR-ISH.

TOWARDS HIM.

When You put in the work AS A BLACK-AMERICAN MAN TO REACH A POINT OF FINANCIAL-STABILITY...?

I don't have to imagine it because I remember what it was like when your mother and I were married.

When MONEY starts COMING UP SHORT...?

COMING UP MISSING?

You don't let that slide and you don't dismiss it. The Problem was I SHOULD HAVE STABILIZED MYSELF FIRST.

And then there is nothing to talk about.

You wouldn't have grown up without a father and I wouldn't have had to go through hell and back to reach this point.

And THAT IS MY POINT.

There are PLENTY of GOOD BLACK-AMERICAN WOMEN OUT HERE.

But MUCH LIKE GOOD BLACK-AMERICAN MEN...?

Everybody is HIDING.

Because the environment IS NEITHER SAFE NOR STABLE.

And THAT IS OUR FAULT AS BLACK-AMERICAN MEN, and, lemme point out that anyone who reads this, BE.

CAREFUL.

Because THAT STATEMENT IS FACTUAL, but comes with the Reality that SINCE THAT IS OUR RESPONSIBILITY.

THEN WITH THINGS BEING THE WAY THEY ARE THEN WE MUST TAKE WHATEVER MEANS IS NEEDED TO RESTORE SAFETY AND STABILITY TO OUR COMMUNITY.

So...?

I needed TO ADD THAT PART.

Because many will nod and agree.

And harp on that and "make demands", with the intention of trying to rub it in Our Collective Faces as Black-American Men, however...?

Anarchy is always followed by EXTREME Authoritarianism.

I have warned about this FACT.

In previous years of this blog, but since everyone expects Black-American Society to continue to decline then no one takes this warning seriously. Like most who do not take Our Race seriously in the first place, so...?

I've done what I was supposed to do.

It's not for me to waste anymore time that I don't have in the first place.

This post, My Son.

Is about REMINDING YOU, or perhaps even BEING THE FIRST TO TELL YOU, that YOUR PRIORITY...?

IS IN ESTABLISHING YOURSELF.

NOT WORRYING ABOUT DATING.

OR IF YOU ARE DATING?

SOLVING YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S PROBLEMS.

Which is ANOTHER MISTAKE I MADE.

Being there for Your Woman ACTUALLY HAS LINES AND LIMITS. But what I HAD TO FIND OUT THE HARD WAY IS THAT BLACK-AMERICAN MOTHER'S DON'T ACTUALLY TEACH NOR SAY THIS TO THEIR SONS.

Instead is a never-ending flood of "take responsibility" talk, even when "the responsibility" was never yours to take in the first place. GET YOURSELF IN ORDER FIRST. AND KEEP YOUR EMOTIONS IN JUST AS MUCH ORDER AS WELL.

I am going to continue to HAMMER OUT WHAT I HAVE CREATED SO THAT I CAN PROVIDE THE MONEY YOU WILL NEED.

And the Support.

FOR YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVORS.

I know THIS POST may not be...?

The MOST UPBEAT of Birthday-Post, BUT...!?

I can't leave anything to chance that You've been told the truth about what is going on around you AND WHAT YOU NEED TO BE DOING AND WHY, so...?

I decided to type this and post it.

But also so that You AND WORLD can see.

That there has not been one day that has gone by that I have not thought about you and worried for your safety and missed you dearly.

BUT...?

I can AT THE VERY LEAST.

MAKE SURE YOU DO NOT GO DOWN THIS PATH THAT I ENDED UP GOING DOWN.

By Finishing.

What I started.

I have to be completely HONEST, though...?

I have NO IDEA how any man CAN WILLFULLY ABANDON THEIR CHILD OR CHILDREN. This has been an experience. THAT I WILL NEVER BE REPEATING AGAIN.

And you are absolutely right...

Little Orphan Annie.

No.

I don't take shit from anyone anymore.

Because it's how I got into this mess in the first place....