Just going through My Own Expansion and Storage Drives I am looking at LITERAL GIGABYTES OF WORK ON MY PART. While that 2-bit moron had the nerve to claim someone had used him AND BY THE WAY!? Once he said that bullshit I had to reintroduce him to reality, where he then posted a blog post on his own sometimey blogsite where he admitted that he is an asshole who doesn't actually pay attention to other people until its too late.
Something I already knew was a huge problem with having him around. He's actually anti-social and simply believes that people and especially women should do what he wants when he demands it, while he of course doesn't do anything to even get her to think she should submit to his demands! This attitude ironically came from his White Russian Jew MOTHER AND NOT HIS FATHER! Which was one of the reasons why His Mother and I never got along! Because she wanted me as his Surrogate Father to FIX ALL OF HER FUCK-UPS AS A SHITTY MOTHER! And I told her ass TO HER FUCKIN FACE "You know, you have a laundry list of things you want me to help Dan with, but? If you knew and know all of his shortcomings, then? Why didn't you fix them yourself as he was growing up with you?"
That piece of shit bitch couldn't fuckin speak for damn near five minutes!
And I sat there and looked at her JOB STEALING ASS and told her, you are the one who taught him how smart he is by SAT standards 1400 score was it? I got a 900. On the SAT. And I got a 900 on purpose, because I'd already figured out that Whites don't value actual intelligence and actual skill and knowledge. Your people value ass-kissers and bootlickers who will grovel at the feet of your gatekeepers and authority figures and so-called movers-n-shakers, nobility. Who had to do God knows what to get into their positions of power. You've set your son up for failure. And you need to be grateful that the Whites here are stupid now, otherwise they'd still be calling you and your family Commies and you certainly wouldn't be working at this firm, let alone be a citizen of this empire. So I'll give you credit, you knew when to abandon the Soviet Union and drag your husband here into obscurity and doom your oldest son who has real talent but no ability to actually talk to and relate to normal people. Because you filled his head with the type of arrogance that'll get him killed pending on who he's talking to.
And then she said "I don't like you."
And I told her "I never said I liked you at any point and I don't need your liking. I've already seen how much permanent damage you've done to your other sons and their father, so, I can live without your approval. But you intentionally sabotaged Dan and his father because you resented being born a White Jewish Soviet and you tricked his father in abandoning his actual power in the Soviet Union so you could come here and hop on the current Whitewoman train that's running, kudos to you, however? When this train derails, you'll be fired immediately." I left that bitch sitting in the lounge of the Center City architectural firm she'd weaseled her way into, where once again. White people own shit, so they decide who to give jobs to. This bitch supposedly was better than Whitewomen here, nope!
Her whore-ass was CHEAPER TO PAY than a Whitewoman here. This is the reality of how Whites do business. It's a horrible business model and I see too many of Us as Blacks emulating it. Bottom line is, every time Dan would make progress. He'd start hanging around his good-for-nothing mother and she'd start with the spoiling him and talking to him like he'd ACCOMPLISHED SOMETHING ALREADY and then he'd come back and wanna sit and try to talk shit with me and it'd always end up in his fuckin humiliation. Every time it was time for fuckin WORK to be DONE, he had something else to do or someplace else to be and lemme be clear, DAN IS, ACTUAL, RUSSIAN NOBILITY, for whatever that shit is worth. Where he inherited the ENTITLED BULLSHIT ASSHOLERY ASPECT OF WHITE NOBILITY!
But was utterly envious of the fact that he didn't have my actual ability to lead and relate to ANY PERSON REGARDLESS OF CASTE-CLASS RACE-N-PLACE! Art told him plenty of times "Fuck is wrong with you man? Brother is giving you fuckin knowledge that would allow you to fuckin LEAP AHEAD OF OTHER WHITE PEOPLE AND YOU KEEP FUCKIN IT UP!"
Then I had to remind brother that "His mother is a bigot."
And Dan looked at me in shock! And I told him "Did you really think I didn't know your mother hates Blacks and sits around talking shit about us."
And that's when he started stammering and finally admitted "You really have lived the way you say!"
And brother was like "Yo!? What, wait, you still!? Not gonna lie I didn't think of that!"
And I just laughed!
And all Dan could do was look ashamed and then I told him "How ironic that a Jewish Russian woman wants to talk down about Us as Blacks, but her ass had to TRICK YOUR FATHER into coming here because her life meant nothing in the Soviet Union."
That's when brother was like "Ay, brother said him and his classmates used to sit in the basement of the school library talking about Black politics and such, well?! Mentioned more than enough times that none of them liked how the Soviets used Blacks with communism this and communism that, but never fuckin came through whenever they were needed, so?"
And I told Dan "You have actual talent. But Your Mother gutted your ability to actually WORK AND APPLY YOUR TALENTS WITHOUT HAVING READY-MADE ACCESS TO USE THOSE TALENTS."
And brother was like "OH SHIT!? THAT MEANS IN A FUCKIN COMPETITIVE ENVIRONMENT!?"
"He stands no chance. Because he has NO AMBITION, NO DRIVE, NO DETERMINATION AND PERSISTENCE TO BE ABLE TO SEE SHIT THROUGH TO THE END!"
And that's when brother looked at Dan and was like "SO THAT'S WHY YOU HANG AROUND SHAWN! BECAUSE YOU CAN'T UTILIZE YOUR OWN FUCKIN TALENTS!"
"But he can." and Dan didn't like admitting that.
His own fuckin mother had spoiled him to such an extent that the first signs of failure and hardship cause him to fuckin abandon whatever he's doing and find some other means to get around the issue instead of facing the challenge head on and either getting the job done! Or failing but LEARNING FROM THE EXPERIENCE!
Dan is a TALENTED PAINTER.
When properly motivated he can actually write and draw, but much like Stacey, someone has to crack the whip!
Otherwise both will turn out childish material that won't be able to be sold, let alone signed by anyone in the establishment. Because of the fact that it is too fuckin obvious that it's just their fantasies and their fantasies alone! So you can only enjoy what is written if you yourself is/are also deeply into your own fantasies of being great and wonderful and everyone and everything simply bends to your whims and needs without any semblance of realism at all. It requires too much suspension of disbelief, where it will make the reader uncomfortable with their own selves if they honestly indulge and like what they've written.
It isn't that neither has no talent, it's actually worse than that.
They have no objectivity.
In Dan's instance though as a painter, theoretically he can get away with it.
However being a professional painter and getting into art galleries and all of that!?
It is steeped with Whites who gatekeep the crap out of that genre-industry, while NOT ACTUALLY BEING FUCKIN IMPORTANT TO IT! Gallery-owners hold massive amounts of power, but they don't actually fuckin PRODUCE SHIT! Yet Whites in typical authoritatively-driven manner, bow down and kiss the feet of these useless fuckin parasites! While they're the ones who do the actual paintings and CREATE THE MATERIALS THAT THE GALLERIES ARE FILLED WITH! It reminded me of why it is that Whites are just as much slaves to their own customs-n-culture as they've made Us as Black People. Even when shit is BLATANTLY OBVIOUS that THE COMMON-WHITES HOLD POWER, they still BUCK-DANCE AND ASS-KISS AND BOOTLICK THE HIGHER UP-WHITES, even when it is clear that WITHOUT THEIR CONTRIBUTION, THAT FOOL HAS NO EXISTENCE AT ALL!
And this is why I KEEP TELLING YOU AS BLACK PEOPLE, you're looking to be saved and have understanding from Whites WHO ARE ACTUALLY SLAVES THEMSELVES TO THEIR OWN POWER STRUCTURE AND CUSTOMS-N-CULTURE! Where THEY KNOW they CANNOT ACTUALLY HELP US! Because THEN THEY RETURN TO THEIR PEASANT-SERF STATUS WITHIN THE CONFINES OF THEIR OWN COUNTRIES! Someone MUST BE ON THE BOTTOM OF A WHITE POWER STRUCTURE. And if it ISN'T US!? Then IT'LL BE THEM AND THEY KNOW THAT! So they'll empathize, sympathize, bullshitize, AND THEN LET SHIT KEEP ROLLIN THE WAY IT IS LONG AS IT ISN'T THEM!
And looking at all of this work I've done!? I was almost TOO LATE to part ways with Dan. Because since he is White, he will still have OPPORTUNITIES THAT HE WILL NOT HAVE EARNED. Whereas with ME!? And WITH US!? That is not the case and TO THAT I SAY SO BE IT! AND WHY!?
Because when you succeed and when I succeed, we KNOW WE HAD TO PUT IN THE WORK. The pathetic attempts to talk about bullshit programs like Affirmative Action, where WHITEWOMEN RECEIVE MOST OF THE BENEFITS FROM THAT PROGRAM, is simply a psychological ploy used to DISTRACT AND DETRACT FROM OUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS!
Ignore them and ignore it.
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