Good Morning.
From Philadelphia....
So it is 2:38am EST as I type this post right now.
I am in the Midst of organizing & laying out what I need to do AND HOW I WILL DO IT, going forward from TODAY ONWARDS.
Youngest Brother's Death has been a sobering & EXTREMELY MOTIVATING EVENT IN MY LIFE. So I have been streamlining & examining what I need to do, WHY I NEED TO DO, AND HOW I CAN DO WHAT I NEED TO DO.
Next Month's Agenda is drawn up & I'll be following it closely & carrying out what I've laid out. It's going to be a GREAT TEST OF MY CHARACTER & COMMITMENT TO THE CAUSES I CLAIM TO BE ABOUT & THE OBJECTIVES & ACHIEVEMENTS I MUST MEET.
The Wording IS NOT exaggeration, because of the Fact that THE REAL REASONS WHY YOUNGEST BROTHER DIED WAS DUE TO THE HEALTH HE WAS BORN WITH & HIS FRUSTRATIONS OVER HOW IT HAD ROBBED HIM OF THE ONE THING HE CHERISHED EVEN MORE THAN ANY OF US AS HIS SWORN BROTHERS....
His AUTONOMY.
Over the last few weeks I have been staring in the Face of the Fact that BOTH OF US have suffered from DEGRADED-DEGENERATED HEALTH, I, on the other hand, STILL HAVE MY AUTONOMY, My FREEDOM OF MOVEMENT.
And ENOUGH HEALTH TO DO WHAT I NEED TO GET DONE, Youngest Brother on the Other Hand...?
Multiple Deaths during His Kidney Transplant?
RENDERED HIM BLIND IN ONE EYE.
AND 50%-BLIND IN HIS OTHER, thus, DRIVING, something that He'd used as a means to ALWAYS KEEP MONEY IN HIS POCKET & VARIOUS JOBS, was now completely LOST TO HIM.
Add to the Fact, that A LIFETIME SINCE HIGH SCHOOL OF HAVING HIS OWN CAR?
Was gone.
Thus?
HE WAS FORCED TO RELY ON OTHERS, and RELYING ON OTHERS, in THIS AREA, was a MASSIVE PROBLEM FOR HIM.
The FREEDOM to get around ON HIS OWN, WHEN HE WANTED & WHERE HE WANTED TO GO, is one of the traits He & I share, however?
Regardless of how hard I may or may not be on myself, I have always been better at DEALING WITH WORKING THROUGH WHAT I DON'T HAVE.
Till I finally get it.
Youngest Brother was never going to get HIS EYESIGHT BACK.
Thus HE WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO DRIVE AGAIN, something HE DEEPLY ENJOYED.
For the Record?
THIS IS WHERE THE CONSTANT DISPLAY OF BLACK-AMERICANS DRIVING IN RAP VIDEOS COMES FROM.
It REPRESENTS FREEDOM.
Something that We don't really get to enjoy nor cash-in on, nearly as much as anyone would like to lie about.
A Car?
Has a MASSIVELY DEEPER MEANING FOR BLACK-AMERICANS, than other American-races, BECAUSE IT REPRESENTS FREEDOM OF MOVEMENT, again, something We don't actually have.
Ahmad Arbury is another victim of this Fact.
The Simple things of Life, aren't so simple for Us, particularly when You are a Black-Male, American or not.
And this is why I am working right now.
Because TIME.
Is NOT MY FRIEND.
NOR MY ALLY.
The UNDERLYING UNTYPED ELEMENT-&-ASPECT TO ALL OF THIS, is of course, as Usual, My Son.
His Birthday is quickly approaching NEXT MONTH.
And those whom I've sent in search of Him, have EXPRESSED DEEP CONCERN over how THEY ARE UNABLE TO FIND ANY MEANS OF CONTACT THROUGH SOCIAL MEDIA, which, BECAUSE OF THEIR EXPERIENCE, is Odd for a Young Man of the Current-Age, however...?
They HAVE ACKNOWLEDED that My Warnings about the very nature of HOW & WHAT My Ex-Wife told Him as well as RAISED HIM, in regard to Me, IS A BIG REASON WHY THEY HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO LOCATE HIM THROUGH ANY KIND OF SOCIAL MEDIA, which, I told Them from Jump Street, simply WILL NOT HAPPEN.
If ANYTHING!?
HE.
COULD ACTUALLY LOCATE ME EASIER.
Because of the Fact that Whites SELL & SHARE & USE, PUBLIC INFORMATION, TO PUSH ADS & ATTEMPT TO SELL SERVICES, so!?
My Public Information AS HIS FATHER.
Could LEAD HIM TO ME, the same way this information LED ME TO HIS MOTHER'S ALIASED INSTAGRAM PAGE, tell Me again how much Whites care about the safety of Women or anyone else for that matter. And note I type that the way I typed it because of what I have already told You.
My Ex-Wife claimed I'd abused Her.
When I saw what she'd put down on the Emergency Protection from Abuse Order Delaware County Domestic Abuse Project MADE SURE TO GET FOR HER...?
I was VERY AWARE OF WHAT SHE WAS UP TO.
Mind You?
Even though My Mother sold Me down the River when all of this started, when SHE HERSELF WAS GIVEN THE OPTION TO BE ABLE TO HAVE VISITATION WITH MY SON 5-YEARS AGO?
SHE REFUSED IT.
BECAUSE NONI STATED SHE COULD ONLY HAVE IT...?
If SHE WAS WILLING TO COME TO HER HOUSE ALONE TO VISIT MY SON.
-_-
Let that sink in.
My Mother argued with the Judge that SHE WANTED VISITATION IN A PUBLIC PLACE, which I already know Noni was MORE CONCERNED ABOUT ME MYSTERIOUSLY SHOWING UP, which WOULD NOT BE THE CASE, because WHY WOULD I EVEN NEED TO DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT, if My Own Mother can SEE MY SON.
At that point SHE COULD SIMPLY KEEP IN TOUCH & THEN GIVE MY SON MY INFORMATION, and I TYPE ALL THIS, TO SHOW YOU HOW BIZARRE & CONCERNING THINGS ARE NOT JUST WITH MY OWN EX-WIFE...?
But the Fact THAT THE SUPPOSEDLY OH-SOH-CONCERNED WHITES IN POLITICS & FEMINISM & GOVERNANCE...?
Have NO TIME TO SPEND MONEY ON GOVERNMENT SANCTIONED & OVERSEEN AREAS WHERE PROBLEMATIC DOMESTIC ISSUES INCLUDING VISITATION, can be SAFE-HAVENS FOR ALL PARTIES DUE TO DIRECT GOVERNMENT-LAW ENFORCEMENT INVOLVEMENT DIRECTLY ON THE SCENE.
No time to spend tax-dollars IN A PRODUCTIVE WAY, where?
Since YOU HAVE DECIDED TO INTRUDE ON THE PERSONAL-BUSINESS OF OTHERS, then, IN FOR A PENNY...?
Down for a Pound.
THESE THINGS are ALWAYS CLEAR CUT SIGNS THAT WHITES ACTUALLY HAVE NO INTEREST IN SOLVING ADDRESSING FIXING, WHATEVER NEEDS TO BE SOLVED, or addressed.
Because they "mysteriously", NEVER COMMIT MONEY TO ACTUAL SOLUTIONS.
Mind You?
My Mother "mysteriously" was concerned for Her Safety, because now that Her Ass was in the Crosshairs?
Well?
Now it matters who My Ex-Wife is AND WHAT SHE'S ACTUALLY ALREADY DONE THROUGHOUT THE COURSE OF HER TIME IN OUR LIVES.
This brings Me back around to Youngest Brother, a post I made last week, and why I am up, active, and posting now. It is also why I DID NOT continue forward with My Engagement to My Ex-Wife, because...?
Once someone SHOWS YOU THAT THEY HAVE NO QUALMS ABOUT PLACING YOU IN DANGER...?
NO QUALMS?
ABOUT LYING ABOUT WHO THEY ARE INVOLVED WITH, WHO THEY ARE TALKING TO, HOW THAT PERSON ACTS, AS WELL AS THEMSELVES...?
Well?
There is no one to blame, but Myself, or One's Self...?
When the Threat In Question?
Kills You.
Like I stated before.
Youngest Brother is Dead.
Because HE REFUSED TO KEEP HIS BIOLOGICAL OLDER BROTHER AWAY FROM HIMSELF.
I need to make it clear.
Could I just BARGE IN & STORM IN TO SEE MY SON AT MONTCO COMMUNITY COLLEGE, yes, I could, annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd...?
How EXACTLY WOULD THAT GO?
Keep in Mind that I went to go & give My Information DIRECTLY TO HIM WHEN I WENT TO ABINGTON HIGH SCHOOL THE WEEK BEFORE HIS GRADUATION, and that was a complete shit show.
Never mind that AS USUAL.
Laws put on the Books BY WHITES, MYSTERIOUSLY, BECOME INVALID & DON'T APPLY, due to CRIMINAL BEHAVIOR OF WHITES, where THEY WON'T DIRECTLY PUNISH THEMSELVES FOR SUCH THINGS, so...!?
They then FUCK UP, other pre-existing Laws, SO THEY CAN AVOID DIRECTLY CREATING CRIMINAL CODES THAT WILL DIRECTLY ADDRESS THEIR OWN INTERNAL CRIMINAL BEHAVIOR.
So with these Facts in Mind.
And the Fact THAT I HAVE ALREADY TAKEN MASSIVE GAMBLES TO GET TO THIS POINT?
All of this has had a SEVERELY HIGH COST.
Where now, as long as I stick to the strategy I've laid out.
For this following year, but was started, when all of this Madness began in 2002...?
I'll not only be able TO PAY WHAT I OWE AND PROVIDE EVEN MORE PROOF OF WHY I HAD TO GO DOWN THIS HORRIFIC PATH IN THE FIRST PLACE, but...?
I will also be able TO RIGHTFULLY.
And?
CORRECTLY.
Punish the Person who never should have done any of this in the first place.
It is My Right, to move on from a Woman who has refused to fulfill her responsibilities in a relationship with Me.
I don't need, anyone, to force Me to take care of My Responsibilities to Children or a Child, I bring into the World.
No Woman.
Has the Right.
To Lie & attempt to Destroy Me, because I refuse to be treated like shit by Her, and have correctly decided to follow the Proper Procedures in ending Our Marriage &/or, Our Relationship.
Once a Woman decides to Lie about the Integrity of a Man, due to Her Own Flaws and Failures, and then willingly turns to Outside Enemy-Forces & Agencies to exact petty-revenge & destroy an integral part of societal-fabric, which is the Word of a Woman, where...?
This only meant something in Our Civilization & Society, which is why Blackwomen had a history of actual power, authority, and value, to demean this Fact.
Because I refuse to allow Myself to continue to keep wiping Your Filthy Fuckin Ass, while You're shittin all over the place & fuckin up Our Lives...?
There is a Right Way.
And a Wrong Way.
To handle such a Woman, but one thing that can't be allowed...?
Is for the Truth of Her Actions.
To never come to Light.
Attempting to Destroy My Character...?
Is one thing.
But stealing away My Child?
It is almost time for Me to show why I warned her that "You think You are slick with all of this, but You are going to learn in the End that the very same Whites who helped You pull off all of this...? Are going to be the very same ones who are going to destroy You...."
All I have to do now...?
Is Finish what she started, the Correct Way, THE LEGAL, way....
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