Michelle Rodriguez, when Slaves Attack...!

Good Evening from Rainy-Philadelphia!

Okay, in my last post I fired shots at Michelle Rodriguez and now I will reveal why by posting the nonsense that she said on February 28th 2015

 LOS ANGELES — Actor Michelle Rodriguez challenged racial minorities in Hollywood to “develop their own mythology” and tell their own stories instead of recasting traditionally white characters as different races.

“It’s not about taking Catwoman or Superman or Green Lantern or whatever these characters are and trying to make them fit to whatever cultural background you are,” the “Fast and Furious” star said in a video posted on Facebook.

“I think that people should stop being lazy and that people should make an effort in Hollywood to develop their own mythology.” 

(Shawn says; This woman thinks that Non-Whites are sitting around BEGGING Whites & White Jews to include us in Their Mythologies. When the facts of the matter are that Black Americans HAVE BEEN AND CONTINUE to create Our Own Mythologies and have constantly had to fend off outright attempts and successful attacks against Our Characters, Creations and the Business Vehicles we've built, companies we've created, to house, distribute and promote them! One thing became crystal-clear to me that there is of course the natural level of competition when businesses collide and the status quo, established businesses, corporations, etc! Seek to keep their status, power, influence and dominance over whatever market they are a part of. Taking out the competition is nothing new, however? When people begin to physically burn down the competition, like Whites have done over the centuries towards any Black-owned anything that truly was Black-owned and all about Black-Empowerment and economic-opportunity. Then this is when you go from competition to outright Race Wars and jury-rigging socioeconomic along with political laws and standards to make sure that we as Black People cannot actually compete due to these jury-rigged standards set up ON PURPOSE by Whites, FOR WHITES, TO KEEP BLACK COMPETITION STAGNANT AND OUT OF THE WAY. People like Rodriguez usually have done NO RESEARCH and have invested NO TIME into finding out what is going on with why Hollywood and White Dominated Media-Mediums continue to thrive, but then the natural order of necessity being the mother of all invention, never APPEARS TO TAKE PLACE. 

   When I say the mother of all invention it is in regards to the phrase that NECESSITY is the Mother of All Inventions. Which means that when something is needed a person or people or the place or race they belong to, will CREATE WHAT IS NEEDED to facilitate and meet that NEED. This is CRITICALLY IMPORTANT because Whites make their bones off of constantly pushing that Black People are lazy and stupid and as such, how can a lazy and stupid people ever meet the ability of CREATING OUT OF NECESSITY. But then when you actually do ANY RESEARCH you start finding out that we are FAR FROM STUPID OR LAZY. This is why knowing where you come from and knowing YOUR HISTORY IS IMPORTANT. It'a also become a MASSIVE PROBLEM FOR WHITES because they are finding out more-&-more that the history that they were led to believe is more of a slanted construction based off of HALF-TRUTHS AND COVER-UP'S where many Non-White Lives were INTENTIONALLY DESTROYED to give them the status and power they now enjoy)  

The comments come after Rodriguez was caught on camera saying that minorities should stop “stealing” “white people’s superheroes.” Rodriguez, who identifies as Puerto Rican and Dominican, was walking to her car when TMZ asked her about rumors that she might be cast in the traditionally male role of superhero Green Lantern, last played by Ryan Reynolds.

She dismissed the rumor as “the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard.” She followed it up with, “It’s so stupid, it’s like, ‘Stop stealing all the white people’s superheroes’ … make up your own. You know what I’m saying?”

Apparently, not everyone felt what she was saying, prompting her to post a Facebook video captioned “About that whole superhero thing.”

“I have a tendency to speak without a filter. Sorry about that,” she began the video.

“What I really meant was ultimately, at the end of the day, there’s a language, and the language that you speak in Hollywood is successful franchise,” she said. “I think that there are many cultures in Hollywood that are not white that can come up with their own mythology.

“Instead of trying to turn a girl character into a guy or instead of trying to turn a white character into a black character or a Latin character, I think that people should stop being lazy and that people should make an effort in Hollywood to develop their own mythology.”

Rodriguez said she intends to take up her challenge as she ponders upcoming projects.

“It’s time to stop, stop trying to take what’s already there and try to fit a culture into it. I think it’s time for us to write our own mythology and our own story.” (Shawn says; I'll get further into this crappy comment too, but for right now? I have to go workout! I'm not gonna mess up my routines and break from my schedules anymore for the sake of stupidity. Especially stupid comments from a stupid person. Later!)

Working My ASS OFF!

Good Evening from Philadelphia!

Compiled the Handbook of From Child to Man yesterday. Over 211 pages and over 110,000 words. In normal book publishing formats that means this handbook would come out to 300-to-350 pages! I'm only gonna sell it for $5, but if I was to go though a publisher they'd probably sell it for $10USD-to-$15USD. However I'm not looking for a publisher because I want From Child to Man to stay EXACTLY AS I WROTE IT. Which means that it is a book centered around main Black characters who aren't kissing ass, suckin dick and playing sidekicks. So thanks Michelle Rodriguez, but Black People have been making comic book characters since the fuckin 50's. But thanks for making an ass outta yourself by believing that Black People sit around waiting for White Americans to make a place for us.

American History is filled with Black self-reliance and White American petty-bigotry where they intentionally destroy what we have built. But people like Michelle Rodriguez, who plays the same wanna-be tough-girl Latina-chick who tends to get KILLED EVERY MOVIE, is too busy to know that. She belongs right next to Shelby Steele and the rest of the so-called Black American political leaders who kiss White American ass and talk shit.

I just finished my first 2-a-Day workout in nearly a year. Now I'm gonna go on ahead & hit this shower and eat dinner. Blood pressure is at 118/70 at 104 bpm (beats per minute). And for those that wonder or want to know why did I just throw shade at Michelle Rodriguez, I'll come back later and post what she said a few weeks ago where I didn't address it with any of the normal Black Youtubers I post comments to and talk to. My comments have actually earned me subscribers over the last few months, even though I don't post videos. I may finally move into that area next, I'm not sure because Youtube is a place that is full-of-shit and has been caught intentionally keeping certain peoples views down and subscriptions down when they talk about issues that may be uncomfortable or too political on their site. Either way!? Lemme get moving!

WORKIN HARD IN PHILADELPHIA, SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!
LATER!

From Child to Man Handbook...!

Good Afternoon from Philadelphia!

I'm compiling the handbook for my book right now. I was in the midst of typing and needed to open one of my background documents for From Child to Man. If there is one thing I try to do when I create a story is that I try to create an actual world that will make the reader honestly feel like they are wherever this place is that I am writing about. At least when it has to do with me making something that is "otherworldly". I recently shocked the shit out of a friend when I typed up a brief synopsis of a ROMANTIC-COMEDY!

They were shocked because they thought that I couldn't do something like that and I made it clear that I can actually make paint-drying interesting if I wanted to or needed to, but I choose not to. I can write dramas based on shit like Empire and all of that, hell? The catfight stories I wrote for Stonerages catfight site were based on a mixture of what we all know as the real world, except for the fact that I DECIDED that in this fake world celebrity catfighting was a critical part of it!

What ended up happening is that I created a stable called VLK which was centered around the three female celebrities I wrote for; Vivica Fox, Lucy Liu and Chiaki Kuriyama, all D-listers AT BEST! And I simply wrote my catfight stories where they were ACTUAL. STORIES. Not just jack-off material for muthafuckas behind a keyboard. My stories became so successful on Stonerages site, that his ass got greedy. Case in point? I can see who is looking in on my blog from what countries around the world, South Africa has been real busy looking in on me, almost IMMEDIATELY AFTER I POSTED MY FIRST POST AND STARTED THIS BLOG.

Hello, Stacey.

Mind you I never told anyone in South Africa that I created this blog, so none of my Black South African friends know about this blog, yet mysteriously South Africa is my biggest page view audience in the short-span of this blogs existence. So I see now why 7-years ago Stonerage lost his mind when he started seeing his catfight website start going through the roof in views and he came right out and told me that I was the sole reason for it. He then lost his fuckin mind immediately after that. -_- He decided that he wanted the rest of his "writers" and I use the term loosely, to write their catfights like me, MIND YOU? My catfight stories had these characters actually fuckin talking about serious issues and shit to such an extent that I started getting strange-ass emails where some of the people HONESTLY THOUGHT I KNEW VIVICA FOX, LUCY LIU AND CHIAKI KURIYAMA! Shit was bizarre, but it told me that I was doing my job by creating stories where the characters didn't just do the dumb shit that is ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL to typical for catfight sites.

Childish. Bizarre. Sex-fetish shit. That couldn't pass for worthwhile reading or writing if your life depended on it. But to me I don't like having my time wasted, so in turn, I don't like wasting OTHER PEOPLES TIME. So quality and something of actual INTEREST is important to me. I have always understood that since I am ASKING PEOPLE TO READ WHAT I TYPE, THEN IT MUST BE WORTH THEIR TIME. Like I said before, Time, is irreplaceable. So whenever I ask people to invest time in what I am doing or what I have to say, I don't want to waste their time with nonsense. And I explained this to Stonerage. He of course was doing nothing but dreaming of dollar signs, so he didn't listen to a fuckin word I said. Which is TYPICAL for greedy muthafuckas, right. In the end I had to go on about my business, because the guy was just trying to be petty when I refused to go along with his Get-Rich-Quick bullshit. He couldn't even keep up my writing speed, my posts where always getting posted late, because he didn't wanna do the work when he finally saw that if he wanted to MAKE MONEY OFF HIS SITE USING ME? Then he had to get my post up on time, which meant work for him. He refused to share the responsibility of getting the posts in order for posting. Adding the pictures when needed. Making sure that the editing was in order. Then posting it to his site. This leads back to what I said before and what most of you actually, honestly, already know;

How badly do you want it?
...&...
Be careful what you wish for, you might get it.

This leads back to what I am doing now, which is compiling all of my background and backstory documents into one handbook. The handbook gives all the technical jargon. The customs, culture, gives info on who is what, where, ALL OF THAT! And I will be selling it as its own separate book for a nice little amount to round out THIS BOOK COLLECTION. I have already jotted down other books in my World Within Worlds series and those docs also have handbooks of their own too. From time-to-time and day-to-day I quickly type up things for those future books and then get back to this first book. So as you can see, I have a interconnected universe for my book series, already in place. As a matter of fact, certain characters FROM THOSE BOOKS are mentioned in passing IN THIS BOOK. In the completed manuscript of From Child to Man the main character of this entire World Within Worlds universe makes an appearance and alludes to his own involvements with the other characters. So I have the overview of everything already done, now it's all about just doing the work and typing it out.
Later!

Something to Shoot For...!

Good Night From Philadelphia,

Just finished watching Planet Hulk, which is an old 2009 Marvel Animated Movie made through LIONSGATE MOVIE STUDIOS! Not even gonna lie, I actually enjoyed it! Watched it while I was eating dinner after typing up today's pages for my book. Just wanted to stop by here because this is the level that I am going to ultimately reach and spinning things off of my actual written works will go a long way in doing that! They say if you wanna be the best then you have to BEAT the best and Marvel Comics & Studios along with DC Comics & Studios are THEE BEST! What I have always made has always been compared to the different comic book writers and authors of high standard who cover fantasy, sci-fi, adventure, with some sort of drama element, since I was in high school. After watching Planet Hulk it really inspired me to work even harder, but I simply wanted to run through here, type this up right quick! And share it with all of you. LATER! 

Return of the King...!

Good Afternoon from Philadelphia!

Well? I was just reminded again of why America is a crapfest now when it comes to employment. Here in the United States most companies have phased out their human resources departments in favor of online employment sites of their own or online job sites. Over the last 3-years straight I have been looking for work and these online employment sites are a pain in the ass. I just got a notice that a job opportunity was open. I go and fill out the online app-reply and then the damn thing says the job offer is closed because it has been filled already. Meanwhile? I LITERALLY JUST GOT THE NOTICE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

I am constantly being reminded that I should not have taken my eye off of my career and pursued my relationship to the detriment of all else. I've been checking out the costs for a printing bundle so I can make my own t-shirt designs and print! The money I spent on phone cards and phone bills from my relationship would have allowed me to buy AT LEAST two of these bundles of equipment where I can scan my drawings into them. Then place a t-shirt or shirt onto the presses and then they can SCREEN MY DRAWINGS ONTO THE SHIRT!!!!!
-_-
I could have been working all these years and investing in my business right from this apartment.
^_^!!!!!
But now that I know this, it's all about GETTING IT DONE! I was reading up on Diamond Dallas Paige and how he created his DDP-Yoga System and why and he simply states over-&-over "How badly do you want it? There is NO WAY AROUND DOING THE WORK. You gotta write out what your plan is, INK IT! PUT IT UP SO YOU CAN SEE IT! THEN GO DO IT! It all comes down to how BADLY do you want it."

Time is a precious thing and it is more precious than Money, but not as precious as People. For the last year-&-a-half I have been digging through literal boxes and crates and totes of stuff! Where I have created enough work where the availability and access to smaller more personalized machinery will allow a productive person to achieve their goals of self-employment and actualization as long as they ARE SERIOUS ABOUT IT AND HAS SOME REAL TALENT AND ABILITY. The last part is DECISION-MAKING, and that is where I have been lacking, repeatedly. I will say this much, my former fiancee's side-piece-chick-dude Dave, became a critical marker in helping me make my decisions in regards to her. This "guy" ALWAYS MADE IT CLEAR THAT HE WOULD NEVER AND DOES NEVER PUT HER FIRST BEFORE HIS CAREER OR AMBITIONS, EVER. Meanwhile my dumb do-gooder-ass was constantly putting her first and then being upset when she didn't understand or care about what I was doing, why, etc-etc! The reality is that IT WAS NOT FOR HER TO CARE BECAUSE THESE WERE MY AMBITIONS, NOT HERS. Any lack of compliance on her part should have been met with me moving on and not allowing my emotions to interfere with the opportunity to create my own path, something that IS CRITICAL for all Black People everywhere and ESPECIALLY as a Blackman living in the United States.

One of the primary reasons why we as Black Americans are having problems is because we no longer have our own communities complete with infrastructures under our control. This is another reason why my dumb-ass hasn't been able to find a job in the last 3-years, restraining order on me or not. However? Should I be shocked or surprised, as a Blackman in general, and a Blackman living in America IN PARTICULAR, that I am seeking employment from White Americans and mysteriously I can't get hired or haven't been hired? 

For starters? 

The history of the relationship between My People and Whites over the last 500-years alone has been all about their conquest and exploitation of My People for Their Betterment. This FACT, is not to be disregarded and should not be overlooked. For me to seek gainful employment or to put my talents to use for Whites is counterproductive to myself and to My People as a whole, because it continues the already massive divide that Whites created when they declared a Secret War on us to make up for the fact that they'd plundered their own sub-continent dry with their wars back-&-forth with one another and also over the fact that certain times in Our History groups of Blacks have successfully marched into the sub-continent of Europe and conquered it! Something they work overtime to keep hidden from most Black People. It explains their intense hatred of us at times and it is because at one point we used to be able to do as we pleased towards them for better or for worse. I'd be pissed to if someone could build castles on my land while I lived in caves and they had running water and bathrooms while my dead were buried above earth and I slept next to them. So I get that and respect that and UNDERSTAND THAT. 

I should not be, as a Black Person, shocked that Whites have a certain way they want me to act when I am ASKING THEM FOR A JOB IN THEIR COMPANIES, THEIR BUSINESSES, THAT THEY OWN. How my own people have lost their way over a basic human understanding that we all experienced as baby and children and kids and teens, till we become and became adults, is actually embarrassing and speaks to how delusional and desperate too many of us have become, because. As a baby our parents give us our own cribs. We have our own bottles. Our own teething rings. Our own pacifiers. As children they buy us our own toys and teddy-bears. We get our first big-wheels and toys and they are OUR. TOYS. We share them with our new found friends, but we EXPECT THEM TO GIVE THEM BACK BECAUSE IT IS OURS. We expect them NOT TO BREAK THEM UP BECAUSE THEY ARE OURS, NOT THEIRS TO BREAK UP. As we continue to grow up our own parents are actually giving us our own silent lessons about OWNERSHIP, but most don't understand that. As kids we get our first action figures or dolls, play-sets and dollhouses, our parents give us these things and they are ours. We break it, then we lose that toy. We lose that action figure that doll that easy-bake set. Then as teens? Now we start getting the hot-shit, but now most parents begin to talk of responsibility. Or EARNING, OUR TOYS. If we're really gifted in the manner of WANTING OUR OWN THINGS then we APPLY OURSELVES TO GET THEM. We BARTER AND HAGGLE with our parents, I'll do chores for the neighbors, make a quick buck. Mow-lawns. We begin to EXPERIENCE what life COULD BE LIKE if we maintain our youthful need TO BE INDEPENDENT, TO NOT NEED MOM AND DAD TO BUY US THIS OR TELL US THIS OR THAT.

We want to earn the right to stay out late, stay up late. And when you're a right-minded child or teen, you tell your parents "I wanna be able to do such-&-such." and they tell you what you need to do to be able to EARN THAT RIGHT, THAT PRIVILEGE, if they are even remotely a good parent or parents. They tell you how you can earn that or they tell you why you can't do that RIGHT NOW. Then, for those of us who HONESTLY WANT THEIR INDEPENDENCE to be able to control their own lives...? We wait for that day like they said of when we can show them that we can be TRUSTED TO BE RESPONSIBLE. It is no different than the tests we take in school, except for this is a test in the school of our lives, in life itself in all honesty. It is a building block that good parents and family will watch-on quietly from the sidelines knowing that this is THEIR FIRST CHANCE to see how good of a parent or parents they've been and just what kind of potential you have and how your life may or may not go forward. Some of us pass, some of us fail, some never try and some quit before we even get the chance to take this first test. Bottom line?

I have all the tools I need to be able to make a living for myself. And now the technology, the means exists, at the basic level of general access, where I don't need to ask anyone to GIVE ME A JOB. Especially Whites. When I can go on ahead and earn a living with the God-given talent that I have, We as Black People, myself especially, have become too dependent on asking or expecting from others things that we need to have the confidence to walk out the door again and do ourselves, EVEN IF WE FAIL. Because even in failure, you learn what does and doesn't work. As we are growing up, we are taught TO OWN WHAT WE HAVE. In something as simple as the toys that we got and the privileges that we may or may not have earned from our parents. But when we go to move into the working world, we go from being children of our parents where we have seen them provide for us and then expect us to VALUE WHAT THEY'VE PROVIDED. Where we then WILLINGLY SEEK THE OPPORTUNITY TO EARN THINGS ON OUR OWN. But ironically once we become adults, we VOLUNTARILY GIVE UP OUR AUTONOMY TO WORK FOR SOMEONE ELSE. When we have actually been shown all along that OWNING THINGS FOR YOURSELF, is far more rewarding than being grateful with whatever someone DECIDES TO HAND TO YOU BASED ON WHAT THEY THINK YOU DESERVE.

I deserve my financial autonomy. And I will have it back, because I have worked for myself before. The fact that I did not keep pushing and striving and driving down the self-sufficient speed-lane was a mistake on my part. And now I get the chance to correct it. If you've read this far, then I suggest you ask yourself what would happen to you if you had to sustain yourself based purely on whatever God-given talents you have. Would you starve to death? Would you have to beg and borrow money? Would you have to rob and steal, because you either don't have or don't know what God-given talents you have. If you are Black and are reading this, the first easy-step you can make is building your own business based off of something you are either good at or enjoy. When you honestly enjoy something, then you are willing to learn more about it to better your craft because you honestly enjoy it. When you are good at something, then practice honestly does make perfect, or at least!? As close to perfect as you can get. When you are good at something, that is your God-Given Talent. Cultivate it. Hone it. And then USE IT. Do not make the mistakes that I made and lose valuable, irreplaceable, TIME. Get out here into this world and do what you need to do to make a LEGITIMATE WAY FOR YOURSELF. Where no one can take that away from you. I know I am. 

Black Empowerment, THIS IS HOW YOU DO IT!

Good evening from Philadelphia.

I finished my workout. Took my blood pressure DIRECTLY AFTER MY WORKOUT... 109/67 bpm (heartbeats per minute) 124! I've been working my ass off people. CONTINUING to lose weight. GETTIN IN SHAPE! Finished my shower. Got dressed. Then came across this when I logged onto my computer. An article about how Floyd Mayweather became the iconic powerhouse that he is. I looked it over, skimmed through it, and it has alllllllllllllllllll the things that I was always saying and at one time was doing. Where I said to myself "That's the way. This is how you become successful, you gotta WORK YOUR ASS OFF. You gotta have FAITH IN WHAT YOU'RE DOING and you have to KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING. You have to know when to make what moves and you have to understand that you might have to sacrifice and even take LOSSES to win a bigger prize, gain more control over your work and become self-sufficient with your business. So you can't be a coward. You also have to be honest and realistic with yourself and what is going on. Gotta make good decisions too. But most IMPORTANTLY!?  You gotta have REAL. LIVE. ACTUAL. TALENT."

Here is the article, enjoy, and understand something!? Stealing your way to success? Conning your way to success? LYING YOUR WAY TO SUCCESS? That shit doesn't fuckin last, because the truth of the matter, THE DOOM-&-GLOOM OF THE MATTER IS? You didn't actually achieve your success legitimately. Someone helped you cheat your way there. Or you found a loophole to cheat your way there, which means at some point or another it's gonna come out that you didn't actually earn your way there. Enjoy the article.
Later!

How did Mayweather become a big-money superstar? He dreamed big – and turned down $12.5M

By Kevin Iole15 hours agoYahoo Sports Commentary

LAS VEGAS – Floyd Mayweather and Leonard Ellerbe would talk – dream, really – about the future, like a pair of kids on a Little League squad who imagined themselves making the big plays to win Game 7 of the World Series.

It was roughly 15 years ago, a contentious point early in a professional career that was teeming with promise. By 2000, there were a few observers who already believed Mayweather was the best fighter in the world. Even those who disagreed couldn't deny his charisma or his fistic brilliance. He was "Pretty Boy" Floyd, an Olympic medalist and a dynamic physical specimen. HBO saw him take apart the classy Genaro Hernandez at the tender age of 21 and knew he was different from the rest of the crowd. 

There were many good fighters who made their way into the professional ranks from that 1996 U.S. Olympic team. There was, however, only one Mayweather.

Recognizing that, HBO offered him a six-fight, $12.5 million contract extension, a deal many thought he'd be crazy to decline.

Mayweather, though, was crazy enough to decline.

He had this dream, this belief, that he was destined to be different. Not just good. Not just great.

Special.

His father, Floyd Mayweather Sr., urged him to accept the offer. He said the same to anyone with a microphone or pen and paper who cared to listen.

But Mayweather Jr. had spent long hours speaking with Ellerbe about where he'd be in five years, then 10, then 15. He knew he wasn't being promoted the right way.

Top Rank, Ellerbe said, did things correctly in the traditional sense. It was building him to be the next Oscar De La Hoya or the next Sugar Ray Leonard. But Mayweather wanted to make his own mark, to create his own identity, and ultimately came to the decision that he needed to split from Top Rank and work on his own if he were going to reach the heights he felt he could.

"The big divide between Floyd and ourselves, with me, it was really the age difference," said Bob Arum, the 83-year-old CEO of Top Rank. "Floyd was asking me to reach out on his behalf more to the African-American community. I was familiar with the African-American community, but it was a different community. It was the community of the [Muhammad] Ali times and the [Joe] Frazier times and older people like myself.

"What Floyd was talking about, which I later realized, was the hip-hop generation, which I couldn't connect to. I didn't do what Floyd asked me to do because I didn't know how."

So Mayweather bolted Top Rank and put his plan into action. And now, 15 years later, he's where he and Ellerbe always knew he'd be.

– – – – – – – – –

About a month before Mayweather takes on Manny Pacquiao at the MGM Grand Garden in a bout that has essentially become a license for the promoters to print money, Ellerbe is standing next to the ring in a deserted gym, an hour after Mayweather has completed a workout.

Gone are the track suit and sneakers, along with the stop watch and towel over his shoulder that Ellerbe once wore. They're replaced by a swanky sport coat and a finely tailored white shirt open at the collar. He's the man who worked silently behind the scenes and put many aspects of Mayweather's career together.

Mayweather said after his workout Thursday that he could make as much as $200 million for the fight. He has transcended boxing and has become an A-list celebrity.

Parked in front of the gym were a pair of Rolls Royces and a Ferrari. As Mayweather showered and Ellerbe spoke, a young man with a spray bottle painstakingly hand washed the Ferrari that Mayweather had driven to the gym.

They were the tangible signs that Mayweather's belief that he would become this big was correct. He knew it all along. So, too, Ellerbe says, did he.

"Me and him both, we [felt that way]. He's always had an incredible mindset to dream and his work ethic is matched to it. But the whole key to it was him becoming his own boss."

Earlier, Mayweather went through what for him was a relatively easy workout. He sparred four rounds with 23-year-old Maurice Lee, a 4-0 lightweight who was on his second day on the job.

Lee showed up for work on Wednesday and wasn't sure what to expect. He pawed at Mayweather but didn't really fire punches at him the way he could. Here he was, facing one of the biggest figures in the history of the sport who is about a month away from competing in the richest fight of all time. Lee didn't want to get into trouble.

He tapped Mayweather with a few punches, and then he heard it, and good, from those in Mayweather's corner.

"They yelled at me, 'Hit him,' " Lee said, grinning. "And so I did."

As he undressed in his locker room, Mayweather spoke of Lee, saying he likes to help younger fighters and give them an opportunity. But as much as he wants to do some young kid he barely knows a favor, he also wants to be in the best shape possible because he has never wanted to win a fight as badly as he does this upcoming match with Pacquiao.

"It's a real good opportunity for him, but it's also a good opportunity for me," Mayweather said. "I need to have young, tough competitors, guys who are trying to make their mark in the sport, pushing me. I feel that's what I need. He pushed and I felt that's what I needed."

Mayweather spoke softly, hardly the outrageous, over-the-top character many have come to know and hate. Mayweather understands that while he has a legion of fans that is desperate to see him win, there is another group that wants him to get his comeuppance and get starched by Pacquiao.

He's free with his time on this mild spring evening, in no rush to leave. He says repeatedly how he feels blessed, how he is thankful for everything the sport has given him.

– – – – – – – – –

He's not the man he was 15, 10 or even five years ago. He explains how it's important to learn and evolve. Boxing came naturally to him, but understanding business was something different. He spent hours with adviser Al Haymon and Ellerbe, talking, dreaming, asking questions and plotting a future that few others could imagine.

"The Floyd Mayweather of 10 years ago was a lot wilder, and I didn't see things the same way that I see them now," said Mayweather, now 38 and in his 19th year as a pro. "I'm a lot older and wiser. At some point, you can't grow any more physically, but you can always grow mentally. I'm growing mentally every day, trying to become a better person."

He became one of the best fighters ever, which he always knew he would. He became the face of boxing, which he said repeatedly he would do. He has transcended his sport, though, and become an athlete so many other star athletes look up to and admire.

They reach out to him for advice frequently.

"NBA owners, NFL owners, they don't want their guys talking to Floyd," Ellerbe said, laughing. "He has all this knowledge, and there are no restrictions on him. He can talk and say what he wants. Those guys are worried what he might tell their players."

Ellerbe said he repeatedly fields calls from big-name athletes who want the answer to the same simple question: How in the world does he generate so much money?

Talent plays a huge role. Mayweather's unbeaten record is, in many ways, a key to everything. If he were 46-1, not only would this fight not be so big, there's a good chance it might not even be happening.

Mayweather has pushed himself in the ring and in the boardroom. He wanted to make certain no one was in better shape. He wanted to learn how to counter certain punches and put more pop into others. But he also wanted to know where the money came from and where it went, how to generate it and how to maximize it and how to unravel the old model that favored the promoters, the establishment, over the athletes.

"In life, a lot of people don't know this, but there are only three ways you can learn: Hearing, seeing and doing," Mayweather said. "Me, I can learn all three ways."

He knew when to put on a show and when to pull back. He doesn't need to be outrageous or ostentatious to sell the Pacquiao fight. Interest is so high, it's selling by itself.

So he speaks softly, insightfully, and there is little of the braggadocio fans have come to associate with him. When he's needed to craft his persona, he was never afraid to take a risk and change something that was going well. He was asked why he hasn't been flashing wads of cash or gaudy jewelry as he promotes the fight.

He grins, wanly, as he answers slowly and deliberately.

"I don't have to do that," he says. "It's about maturity. It's about growth. I don't have to do that. Everyone knows I've built an empire by communicating in a certain way. There were power moves. There were business moves. The business moves, as far as talking and communicating on camera, doing what I have to do, being flashy and flamboyant, I [did those when necessary and] I got to where I am. So I did my job.

"I gave you the 'Pretty Boy' Floyd persona and then I came back and gave you the 'Money May' persona. I built an empire. I built a strong team. Now I can sit back and say I've done my job. I've got fans from [appearing on] 'Dancing with the Stars.' I've got fans from the WWE. Fans from all walks of life. Put them all together and I have all these fans. And here I am."

He sits on the top of an empire that is generating money at a mind-boggling pace.

If he faces Pacquiao in a rematch later in the year, he could come close to having a year in which he earns close to half a billion dollars.

Think of that. He'll make more in one night than the payrolls of the majority of Major League Baseball teams. If there is a rematch, he'll have an outside chance to earn upward of three-quarters of a billion dollars before his career ends.

He'll be remembered as one of the greatest fighters who ever lived as well as perhaps the most powerful.

But 15 years ago, before he knocked Diego Corrales down five times en route to earning an HBO contract; before he destroyed Arturo Gatti in his pay-per-view debut; before he bested De La Hoya in a record-setting PPV match; before he routed Canelo Alvarez in a bout that generated a record $150 million in domestic pay-per-view revenue, Mayweather believed.

He'd believed he'd make it. What the world marvels at now is simply what he expected all the time.

He wasn't crazy for turning down that six-fight, $12.5 million deal.

That was just chump change compared to what he's going to make on May 2.

Cuz I Don't Like Your Daughter, BITCH!

Good Afternoon from Philadelphia!

Getting ready to workout. I'm looking at THE 5150 Show! This episode here is definitely a must see! ENJOY!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VdvNbsAtlCs

Time to Get Funky and RAW!

Stomp mud holes in posses like WHO!?
LIKE GIGANTORRRRRR!
-Parrish Smith of EPMD-

Good morning from Philadelphia!

EPMD has always been one of my favorite hip-hop groups. Each and every album of theirs has always been about them handling their business and talking about how they went about it. What's going on around them at the time, what's going on in the world at that time and some of the typical rhyme droppin-line-droppin that's common for a hardcore hip-hop group. I have every one of their albums except for their very last one, because their music is relatable to me. They make it clear that if you honestly are trying to get anywhere in life you really aren't gonna have time to play around with people who aren't serious about whatever is going on either in the world or what you have stated you want or need to get accomplished.

This blog has only come into existence now solely because I've finally reached a point where NOW, I am not only SERIOUS about the business of my writing. But I have HONESTLY MADE REAL IN ROADS TO ACCOMPLISH MY OBJECTIVES. As I'm typing I'm thinking of that scumbag who called me the other day and bitched up once I made it clear to remind him OF WHO HE IS AND WHAT HE ACTUALLY REPRESENTS, while he kept trying to say "I'm a man. I handle my business like a man."

For any other Black American reading this in particular, ESPECIALLY ANOTHER BLACK AMERICAN MAN, you know, WE ALL KNOW, anytime another Black American Man says the word "I'm a man" more than three times while he's supposedly "handling his business"? THAT NIGGER IS FULL OF SHIT! Mind you!? When ANYONE constantly says "I'm all about business" over-&-fuckin-over when they're talking to you they're letting you know they're a fuckin CON-ARTIST. And that fuckin piece-a-shit nigger kept talking with that wanna-be smooth sounding voice "I'm about business. We men, Shawn. We men. Cause I'm just callin about business, man. You know, I ain't gone go back-&-forth with you." then the muthafucka promptly went back-&-forth with me. -_- Even now I'm like, yeah, this is her kind of fuckin do-nothing man all right. Whatever. That shit still shocks me though, quietly. How you gone call to "defend your woman", then when I make it clear that you are somebody I need to hurt just to regain some respect and show your piece-a-shit bitch to stop slandering me online, then it becomes "NAH-NAH-NAH! I'M JUST CALLIN ABOUT BUSINESS MAN, IT AIN'T PERSONAL, IT AIN'T PERSONAL! I'M JUST CALLIN BOUT BROKEN, THAT'S IT!"
-_-
"So you ain't callin ta fuckin take up for this bitch?"
"NAH-NAH-NAH! JUST BUSINESS SHAWN, JUST BUSINESS."
-_-
Wow. Pathetic. BUT-NOT-SURPRISING! You qualify as HER TYPE OF MAN! NOW GET OUTTA HERE YOU DAMN NIGGAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!! Ridiculous. Waste my fuckin time like that, then the muthafucka never handled any fuckin business anyway! "Shawn I'ma shoot'chu the attorney information. I'ma get that out 2-ya, okay!" -_- "Yeah whatever pretty-boy." then the muthafucka's phone cut! Where it SOUNDED LIKE his call dropped. I star-69 this nigger back and the fuckin operator tells me it's a fuckin SKYPE#. A SKYPE#? REALLY!? REALLY!? >_> u fuckin kiddin me? So this dude clearly doesn't want me having his fuckin number, meanwhile, when his ass called the machine took down his fuckin number, cowardly dumb-ass. It's like everything was showing me STRAIGHT TO MY FACE that fuckin around with this bitch was a major fuckin mistake and that's what I get! That's what I get for playing in the trash! Dude called back and then had the nerve to ASK ME for attorney information & their bar association #.

I'm like? "You didn't even send me any of the info you claimed you were gonna send" the whole fuckin thing was a sick fuckin PUSSIFIED, JOKE! Yet my DUMB-ASS! IS STILL TALKING TO THIS LOSER LIKE IT'S WORTH MY TIME. So I tell this pussy, this fuckin disgrace to all Blackmen everywhere "I don't have an attorney." then he fuckin goes "Awwwwwwww, Shawn man, I thought you was serious." MEANWHILE!? I'M LIKE, WHY THE FUCK!? WHERE THE FUCK?! DOES THIS BITCH KEEP FINDING SCUMBAG DUDES TO FUCK WITH! WHO THINK THEY'RE FUCKIN COOL WITH EVERY FUCKIN BODY THEY FUCKIN TALK TO!? And what I mean by that is this;

You know the smooth talking muthafucka's who INGRATIATE THEMSELVES ON YOU AND TALK LIKE THEY FUCKIN ALREADY KNOWN YOU FOR FUCKIN YEARS! WHEN YOU ONLY JUST FUCKIN MET'EM AND NOW YOU ALREADY FUCKIN DON'T FUCKIN LIKE'EM CUZ THEY'RE ACTIN LIKE THEY'VE BEEN KNOWING YOU FOR FIFTEEN-TWENTY FUCKIN YEARS! Just listening to this bitch-ass-nigger nigga NIGGAH! OR HOWEVER MUTHAFUCKA'S IS SAYIN THAT SHIT NOW! But just listening to this dude was pissin me the fuck off because I could tell that this is the muthafucka that'll try to fuck your fuckin wife or girlfriend the moment he thinks your fuckin back is turned! THERE IS NO WAY I'D FUCKIN TRUST THIS DUDE TO DO SHIT FOR ME! CUZ YOU CAN HEAR IT IN HIS VOICE THAT'LL FUCKIN FUCK YOU OVER AND ROB YOU FUCKIN BLIND! NO WONDER HIS FUCKIN WIFE OR WHATEVER DON'T FUCKIN TRUST HIS ASS! He ran his coon-train conductor ass right up off my phone after I told him "I don't need a fuckin attorney to find out basic information. You've provided nothing but a bunch of bullshit! You claim this bitch is published, where THROUGH WHAT PUBLISHING HOUSE? WHAT IS THE IBSN OF THE BOOK!? DO YOU REPRESENT HER!? FUCK ARE YOU WASTING MY TIME FOR NIGGER!"

This guy then hangs up.
And? For today's generational audience, the caps? The cursing? All fits. Today's generation trivializes too many serious situations and downplays it by calling them rants. Baby-mama-drama and a whole host of catchwords and word-phrases where it sets a tone that tries to convince people to lower their guard and not honestly pay attention to exactly what is going on and take it seriously. This guy calling me up, yo? Show me something, SOMETHING. That, as a MAN, I can say to myself "At least this guy has a fuckin sack and I can see why she was cheating with him." Instead all I am seeing is that this guy is just a piece of shit, liar. Who trolls around looking for easy-pussy and then playing games with the woman till she's all used up and then moves on. Make no mistake, that is my former fiancee's problem and her choice. But just like women do, we men do the same thing and I'm being honest with what I type here. I really wanted this man to show me SOMETHING. So this way I'm not left to look at the entirety of my nearly 5-years with that woman as nothing more than a sick twisted joke. A colossal waste of time. Case in point? I reach my deadline, publish my book, go on to become AT LEAST A DECENT WRITER, then she can say at some point or another "I hate that muthafucka and I hope he fuckin dies. But at least his Doom-&-Gloom ass got his fuckin life back in order and did what he said he was gonna do when he told me to wait. Guru of Life my ass."

Meanwhile? Someone is OUTSIDE LISTENING TO ARETHA FRANKLIN'S RESPECT! Ties right in. Ties right in. Now it's time for me to get into the guts of this morning's post, hang on to your hats ladies-&-gentlemen and keep your hands inside the car because this is gonna be a fuckin bumpy ride on the road of muthafuckin REALITY! When I talked with two of my sworn-brothers LAST NIGHT, fresh off the fuckin fields of serving in Afghanistan the first thing out of their mouths was "Yo? So lemme get this straight? This dude is actually the reason why you didn't marry this chick at the airport, ISN'T IT!?"

And I was like "Yeah, because I knew she was still towing this piece of crap around behind us." one of them then said to me "You fucked up anyway, brother. Because when you caught this chick the year before, yo? You should have ended that then and there." and I was like "Yeah, I should've." but my second sworn-brother was like "Fuck you mean, 'yeah I shoulda'? That's why your ex-wife fuckin got you all hemmed up and you lost all that fuckin time with your son. You fuckin too soft on these piece of shit bitches you been runnin with. You're the muthafucka with the real talent IN OUR FAMILY. But you got the fuckin hardest road to tow on because you constantly trying to give bitches who ain't shit, chances they're own family never give'em! We don't live in the fuckin 40's, 50's, 60's & 70's, brother. And you got a lotta fuckin fools like this dude she's fuckin with runnin game. Then this chick herself was runnin game. And then you already got that fuckin restraining order bullshit from your ex-wife hemming you up on your fuckin employment and you talkin about 'yeah I should've ended it when I caught this bitch red-handed'. You're not handling your fuckin business and you're playin around like you got time, money or ROOM to be playin around."

When he said that shit to me? All I could do was sit here and just soak that shit in because HE WAS KICKIN FACTS! NOT BULLSHIT. He wasn't saying shit to me to MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. He wasn't saying shit to me to say; everything was my former fiancee's fault, NO! He made it clear that the bullshit that went on a few days ago WAS MY FAULT BECAUSE I DIDN'T HANDLE MY BUSINESS A FEW YEARS BACK WHEN I CAUGHT MY WOMAN CHEATING ON ME. And you make sure you cut, copy, paste that too, because THIS IS WHY I KNOW WHAT FAMILY ACTUALLY IS, because family doesn't fuckin omit when I've caused my own fuckin problem and they make it clear just like he did last night;

Handle your business.

He told me up front "How much shit have we gone through? You've seen violent shit. Done violent shit. Why are you talking to a civvie like they're another soldier when you know they're not. You fucked up, brother. And you gave this woman and her creep-joint the impression that you're all talk and no action when you decided not to get rid of her when you caught her lying to you. You're in no position to play around with people who aren't seriously committed to you and whatever cause you're involved with. Your cause was to get MY GODSON BACK. And you stopped to fuck around with this woman who was already married in the first place. THAT'S #1. It doesn't matter nor does it count that you made it clear that you weren't gonna be like the side-piece-chick-dude that called you a few days ago. What matters is that YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO HAVE A STANDARD AND YOU VIOLATED THAT AND NOW YOU ARE STARING AT THE END RESULT OF NOT HANDLING YOUR BUSINESS CORRECTLY."
-_-
YO!? I couldn't say SHIT TO THAT MUTHAFUCKA! I COULDN'T SAY, SHIT! THAT'S FUCKIN FAMILY! PEOPLE WHO HONESTLY LOVE YOU, THEY DON'T FUCKIN PRETEND LIKE THEY DON'T KNOW YOU AND WHO YOU ARE AND WHERE YOU'VE BEEN AND WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN AND WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO STAND FOR, because my 1st sworn-brother was like "Does this chick know anything about the rest of us?" and I told him "I'm probably gonna do a blog post tomorrow, but no not really." and both of them was like "What about Nigeria? What about Ghana?" I was like, nah "What about Liberia?" nah-nah. So he was like "So you decided to STOP GETTING YOUR LIFE IN ORDER to have a shitty relationship with a woman who fuckin wouldn't get a divorce on her own and now you shocked that she slandered your ass on her blog site?" ay? I had to admit to him that this is essentially what I did. And the moment I tried to "shy away from that shit" both of them were like "This ain't no fuckin lawyer-talk bullshit man. You fucked up. You caught this chick red-handed and then you didn't get rid of her then and there. You then tried to make the relationship work, but you actually didn't trust her anymore. The reality is though, she was never trustworthy to begin with and you know that. What grown woman needs someone else to get her out of a decision that she decided to make when she married a man and she saw he wasn't worth it?"

They proceeded to bring me full-circle back to why my marriage to my ex-wife didn't work and how I ended up getting my son stripped from me by her and how she was able to get a restraining order against me where I thought all these years I was convicted for domestic abuse and I only found out AFTER I finally started focusing on GETTING MY LIFE IN ORDER AGAIN. That I have a restraining order on my public record FOR A DOMESTIC DISPUTE. These two members of my family are two of the people I grew up with and ran the streets with and busted heads and took names with! We were all supposed to go into the army, but I didn't. My sister-in-law was screaming at me last night because even though I've spent the last year-&-a-half running to catch-up on the time that I've lost and wasted, she was like "So you put some Non-Blackwoman ahead of your son!? JESUS CHRIST SHAWN WHAT THE FUCK!? THEN YOU FUCKED SHIT UP WITH YOUR SURROGATE SON TOO!?" and she made it clear to remind me that yes, I did all that running and racing and wasting for a non-Blackwoman who never pushed me for the sake of my son. Last night? I took A MASSIVE "L"!

Because I deserved it.

My sister-in-law was like "Look at all you've accomplished in a-year-&-a-half while you were bedridden for most of it!" I was like, true, but then she was like "I'm looking at what this bitch is saying on this blog. She's fuckin dragging your name through the mud because THIS IS WHO SHE IS." but then she hit me with the fact that "She's blaming you for everything that ever happened while making sure not a soul knows shit about the scumbag family she comes from, the shit that went on when you were with her! Or the shit that she did! So that means that everything you ever did or tried to do with this woman. MEANT NOTHING TO HER! Now she's LICKIN HER FAMILY'S ASS CUZ SHE'S DESPERATE TO MAKE UP WITH THEM AFTER SHE USED YOU AS A WEAPON AGAINST THEM EVEN AFTER YOU TOLD HER DUMB-ASS TO STOP DOING THAT! She's gonna keep HER FAMILY'S DIRTY LAUNDRY AND HER OWN! But she's gonna fuckin smear the shit outta you and then pretend like she's some fuckin victim, HOW COULD YOU FALL FOR THAT AGAIN!? Why do you involve yourself with women like this!? STOP WASTING YOUR TIME ON STUPID BITCHES AND GET YOUR FUCKIN WRITING CAREER OFF THE GROUND MAN! I'm readin this shit AND ALL SHE DOES IS IMITATE YOU IMITATE YOU IMITATE YOU! Not an original fuckin thing on the fuckin thing except her cheap imitations of how you write, how you do things, spun with her SILLY STUPID CHILDISH-ASS WAY OF SEEING THE WORLD! YOU LEFT OUR GODSON IN THE HANDS OF A WOMAN YOU KNOW AIN'T RIGHT IN THE HEAD FOR THIS FUCKIN PETTY CHILD!? C'MON MAN!"

You see, this wasn't DOOM-&-GLOOM. What my sister-in-law said ISN'T doom-&-gloom. These are facts. What she said is reality. And the reality of the situation and the reality of WHAT I'D GONE AND DONE LIKE A JACK-ASS. Not because I say so. But because it is so. These are things that I am going to have to answer for when My Son asks me "Why did it take you so long to get back into my life, dad?" I'm gonna have to tell him the truth and I've already been typing daily documents since the start of this year so that he can see exactly what I've been doing. I've also got the journals that I've kept since 2002 so he can read what his father had been doing all those years I was away from him. But what sister-in-law said was true and is true and has nothing to do with delusional thinking or flat out denial. There was a price to pay for my decision and I am going to pay that price, because only a scumbag coward would do otherwise.

So then my 2nd sworn-brother, her husband, mind you I'm on a conference call with all three of them and they all made it clear that "If you need our help we'll DEFINITELY BRING IT!" but my 2nd sworn-brother let me know again that "You were never in a position to even do this, that's why your oldest son moved out on you and won't talk to you anymore. Because you invested in this woman and she was never worth it. Now she thinks she has the right to talk shit on you, because she's pissed. She has no reason to be pissed. But she's a child in a grown woman's body and I think you knew that at some point and you kept going anyway, well? Now you gotta handle your business. Now you gotta handle your business."

We talked for hours. And all of them pointed out the fact of what happened when I finally went into the White American Domestic Court System four years ago where they reminded me of how the judges in my Child Support Case and when I was being held for having STOPPED PAYING CHILD SUPPORT TWELVE YEARS AGO, all sided with me. My sister-in-law said it. My sworn-brothers said it. People in my neighborhood right outside my window now have said it "I don't know of ANYONE that owed nearly $50,000 in child support being told by a judge, 30 days jail ONLY or $1,000 AND YOU CAN LEAVE FROM PRISON." dude across the street told me the other day "People KNOW YOU MAN, I know you're not whoever you were long time ago, Shawn. But people KNOW you're a good man, man. You say what you mean you mean what u fuckin say, all right. You told the fuckin," and he started fuckin laughin and he said "Look? I'm fuckin White, okay? You fuckin told the fuckin Whiteman years ago, yo? I took this loss on the bullshit domestic abuse claim to protect my son, because I can't fuckin trust that my fuckin wife won't fuckin kill us all if I beat this fuckin case with nowhere to fuckin go except back to the house with her. My man, your son was barely a year old. You fuckin took the loss. Went to work. Paid child support, they gave her the fuckin restraining order and then she used that as a means to keep your son away from you. YOU THEN TOLD THE FUCKIN WHITEMAN AGAIN, YO!? You went INTO FUCKIN COURT WHERE YOU WERE ALREADY IN CONTEMPT! AND YOU TOLD THEM AGAIN! ALL RIGHT!? U FUCKIN TOLD THEM TO THEIR FUCKIN FACE! IN CONTEMPT COURT! Fuck does fuckin what's-her-name know about standing up to authority and saying straight-up I CAN'T SEE MY SON?! NO MORE FUCKIN MONEY. FUCK IT! Dude? YOU? ARE A FUCKIN BLACKMAN, ALL RIGHT. NO BULLSHIT! YOU ARE A FUCKIN BLACKMAN THAT WHITES FUCKIN FEAR BECAUSE YOU MADE IT CLEAR THIS IS WHAT THE FUCK I'M GONNA DO IF YOU DON'T FUCKIN STOP MAKIN FUCKIN EXCUSES FOR THIS BITCH! AND I DON'T GIVE TWO FUCKS ABOUT WHAT YOU GONNA THINK OF IT OR WHAT YOU'RE GONNA DO! THIS IS WHAT THE FUCK I'M GONNA DO IF THIS SHIT CONTINUES!" then he looked at me and he said real fuckin quiet-like "Then? You fuckin went and did it. You did exactly what you said you would do. That's why fuckin ten-eleven years later? Fuckin judge was like, $1000 or 30 days, we're done."

I don't owe anymore child support at all. Because like I always said from day-one, my ex-wife was simply trying to get revenge on me for petty, selfish reasons. When I complied with the courts and did what I was supposed to and anytime she had to show up she could see and hear that the judge on the bench, like the judge at my video court date when I was up at the George W. Hill Prison for not paying my child support. Both of them knew EXACTLY what was up. And the times of simply shoving men through the system had passed. Now it was all about actually probing the cases, asking questions and trying to find out what the hell actually happened and why is this going on. And these judges HONESTLY REMEMBERED ME. Because I was HONEST FROM THE DOOR ALL THOSE YEARS AGO. They also saw the fact that from time-to-time I even sent in $5, $10, $20 over the years. When my ex-wife saw that she couldn't just lie and make the courts do her dirty work for her anymore, she walked right into court WITHOUT WARNING and zeroed out all $60,708.26 of child support owed. I have not found one person yet who has not said that the only reason why a woman would all of a sudden do that is because of the fact that she started the whole thing simply out of sheer spite in the first place. Caseworker for my doctor's office and my doctor were utterly shocked when I showed them the paperwork and then they both said the same thing "She hasn't contacted you though, has she?" and I said "No. And she has all my information. All of it. Address. Phone. Email. All of it. She refuses to talk to me directly and I already know why and it's because of the last line of defense lie that she has, which was our divorce decree that she lied to get. She has to have SOLE CUSTODY, which is why she knows she doesn't HAVE TO TALK TO ME IF SHE DOESN'T WANT TO. But I have one last card up my sleeve that will do away with that and reverse our roles permanently once I look over all of the paperwork for the finalized divorce decree. If I've done my work well enough, she's unwittingly given me the means to send her to prison for 5-to-10 years."

I remember that the caseworker looked at me and she said "Damn!? You planned all of this out that long ago? I'd hate to get on your bad side, buddy." and I told her "I had to sacrifice raising my son. I had to go through the domestic court system and for what? Because I wanted a divorce from her? I never heard my son's first words. Never saw his first steps. Wasn't there when he was teething or sick or crying. I don't care about what anyone else thinks or what it all means to them, but I waited my whole life to be a better father than my father and my sister's-father and my mother's father and I was. And she used the White American Court System to take that all away from me. How much does your son or you daughter or your children mean to you? What would you do if someone took them from you and it was unjustified and you had no place to turn. When women are abused or isolated and in dangerous situations with children, everyone comes running. But when men are in danger and isolated and abused everyone says 'man-up'! And then they walk away. So you do what you need to do. I do what I needed to do for my son to have the best chance possible of surviving, where already, he was barely 13-months and already he's forced to deal with survival mode because I made the wrong choice in having this woman as his mother. I can't trust the White American Domestic Court System. And my own family is trying to profiteer off of my problem and I was a stay at home father like a fool back then. My ex-wife stole my black book so I couldn't reach any of my sworn-brothers outside of the US who were all up in the military oversees, I had nothing and I got caught with my pants down around my ankles because I was dumb enough to be honest with a woman who was never worth it in the first place. So I got what I deserved."

Make no mistake about it, I know that cutting my son off from financial support from me was a fucked up thing to do on a SOCIAL LEVEL. But being a father, BEING HIS FATHER. Is more than me being a walking-wallet. Putting food on the table? Roof over a child's head? Clothes on their back, like Sister Shaharazade Ali said & still says;

"There are people in this world that think that they're raising a child because they put food in their bellies. Roof over their heads. Clothes on their backs. Shoes on their feet. No. THAT IS MAINTAINING A CHILD. Anybody can do that. You're supposed to do that. But all that is is maintaining a child, THAT'S NOT RAISING A CHILD. That's why we have children that are beaten and abused, but the mother's dress'em up nice. Have'em in designer clothes, kids have no sense of self. No moral compass, no sense of direction and not one clue of what it means to be Black. But they know the latest rap songs and be up on the Iphone-7 and know how to tweet and all this other mess. But they have NO FOUNDATION and NO CORE SENSE OF SELF, because their mother never taught'em nothin. Then she's trying to get the Whiteman to drive HER MAN OUT THE HOUSE whenever he is a man, because she wanna be able to do whatever she wants and her man now steppin up and steppin-in and sayin; 'Look? Raising these kids is supposed to be your domain and you don't know what you're doing. I gotta step in now cuz u can't do your job.' Then she wanna call the Whiteman and call child support and all this mess cuz she's embarrassed that she can't be one of the core principles of what it means to be a woman. Being a mother. And being a mother means you have to be able to educate your children on who they are, what they are supposed to be about, what their father is about and what your people are about. Lot of these women runnin around today are horrible mothers and they lie to cover it up, but you see it in how their children conduct themselves. Child in front of your face is respectful, but really they're being deceitful cuz the mother said act right in front-a me, but then when the child's outta sight they can act like any ole kind of wild savage till the Whiteman shoots them dead for wildin out! Or they get arrested or got all kinda crazy mess chasing them home cuz their mother said act right in front of me, but act a fool anywhere else. Childish nonsense. Childish, stupid, nonsense, because it tells the child you can lie to me. Be deceitful, then the child grows up to be phony and a liar and then they mamma lookin around claiming they didn't teach them that, YES YOU DID! Yes you did. Maintaining a child, IS NOT RAISING A CHILD."

I remember when I saw this interview on youtube last year and I listened to her and I could fuckin feel my fuckin adrenaline flowin because I was like, FINALLY! FINALLY SOMEBODY FUCKIN UNDERSTANDS THAT IT'S NOT JUST ABOUT MONEY AND SHIT! But this woman and countless other Blackwomen have been saying this for decades and you don't see anyone running to give them TV-shows and all that Empire shit. Because if you put Blackwomen talking about things that matter on TV, then you start showing people that we're not a race of losers and liars. And that we not only do care about ourselves, our children, and our future. But we know how to handle our business just like everybody else. Way back in 2002 I told the judges in both my contempt cases that I make enough money to pay my bills and pay child support. I don't have anymore money to spend on enforcing an order THAT YOU GRANTED HER. If this court will not make her honor her agreement, then I will no longer continue to pay child support while I cannot see my son. And then I am already under a restraining order, how on earth can I then argue and fight with her under these circumstances? If YOU WILL NOT ENFORCE WHAT YOU GAVE HER, THEN I WILL NOT PAY ANOTHER CENT.

I damn near started a riot RIGHT OUT HERE IN MEDIA COUNTY COURTHOUSE OF DELAWARE COUNTY! Because the men-&-women in there, you could fuckin see it! It was like a fuckin morgue. The women were all bitter and pissed and the men were all COWERING AND SHIT! FUCK OUTTA HERE! Soon as I spoke up HER ATTORNEY STARTED TALKING HER SHIT and I repeated myself AND THE MEN AROUND THAT FUCKIN COURTROOM THEY FUCKIN PICKED THEIR FUCKIN HEADS UP! I couldn't believe that this kind of SHIT! WAS GOING ON! People just SITTIN THERE, head all fuckin down and shit, GROWN FUCKIN MEN! GROVELING BEFORE THEY GOT IN FRONT OF THE FUCKIN JUDGE! I started arguing with the VERY SAME MAN I WOULD SEE JUST 4 YEARS AGO! And I made it clear I'M NOT GROVELING FOR SHIT MUTHAFUCKA! THIS IS MY CHILD TOO! FUCK OUTTA HERE!

And notice, real fuckin locations. Not some bullshit vague shit. I swear on my grandmother's grave I will NEVER AGAIN! ALLOW ANYMORE COWARDS AND LIARS TO EVER SLANDER ME AGAIN WHEN I FOUGHT MY ASS OFF WHEN OTHER BLACK PEOPLE RAN FROM WHITES! When cowards refused to stand up for Our People or for themselves, I fuckin DID! AND STILL FUCKIN DO! I am proud of being BLACK! And no matter how FUCKED UP I AM OR MY PEOPLE OUR I KNOW WE CAN GET OURSELVES RIGHT AND RETURN TO A POSITION OF RESPECTABILITY AND POWER! SO FUCK OUTTA HERE WITH ALL THIS TREACHEROUS, TRAITOROUS, BOOTLICKIN BELLY-CRAWLING HANDS-UP BULLSHIT! I come from Black Family THAT HAS DIED FOR OUR PEOPLE! I have run with Black People who have fought in race wars with me against FUCKIN SKINHEADS AND CROOKED WHITE COPS! I know NOTHING ABOUT BEGGING FOR MY LIFE WITH HAND'S UP DON'T FUCKIN SHOOT! And LAME ASS HASHTAGS ABOUT BLACK LIVES MATTER! I KNOW MY FUCKIN LIFE MATTERS MUTHAFUCKA! AND IT'S UP TO ME TO MAKE SURE THAT IT FUCKIN MATTERS MUTHAFUCKA! I cannot believe, even as I type this, with all that I have done in my life. Where I have RISKED MY LIFE FOR WHAT IS FUCKIN RIGHT! But I have sat and allowed a COWARD WHO ALLOWS HER DAUGHTER TO BE LOCKED IN A HOUSE AND BEATEN! TO THINK SHE CAN TALK SHIT TO ME ABOUT DIGNITY! To TALK SHIT ABOUT THE COPS OF SOUTH AFRICA AND THE ANC WHEN YOU WOULDN'T FUCKIN CALL THE COPS ON HER BOYFRIEND! AND THEN YOU ADMITTED AFTER I KEPT FUCKIN PRESSURING YOU TO DO THE FUCKIN RIGHT THING! THAT YOU KNEW THAT FUCKIN DIRT-BAG'S UNCLE AND YOU WENT TO SCHOOL WITH HIS ASS AND HE WAS A FUCKIN COP! And you make sure you cut copy paste that YOU FUCKIN COLOURED COON-ASS TRASHWHORE! CUZ I KNOW YOU'RE READING MY BLOG!

I didn't cry and whine. I did't put on a SHOW. I didn't LIE. It wasn't DOOM-&-GLOOM. It was, here are the facts. Here is my proof. This is what I DID WRONG. This is what I DID NOT. And because of the fact that I was HONEST. CONSIST. AND THEN PROVIDED PROOF! FACTS! This is why I am able to fuckin type this shit today, right now. Because I fuckin FOUGHT FOR THE RIGHT TO BE FUCKIN ABLE TO TYPE THIS SHIT. BECAUSE I HANDLED MY FUCKIN BUSINESS. I will never.
Fuckin.
Again.
Allow some piece  of shit BITCH. To slander me. And last night MY FAMILY made it clear "We got your back MUTHAFUCKA! BUT STOP FUCKIN AROUND WITH STRAY DOGS UP ON THE FUCKIN INTERNET! Handle your business! Protect your reputation. Don't fuckin let no fuckin BITCH who lets her fuckin DAUGHTER GET BEATEN UP! TALK SHIT TO YOU! Don't take CRAP from a family of RAPIST! MOLESTERS! AND CON-ARTISTS! And burn every fuckin thing to the fuckin ground that YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO BURN TO THE GROUND. SO THESE FILTHY MUTHAFUCKA'S CAN'T FUCKIN PROFITEER OFF OF YOU! And if they want war? Then this is what we do. This is who we are. And this is who YOU ARE. Stop being merciful and makin excuses for lousy-bitches. She fuckin stops slandering you on her fuckin blogs and shit, then you fall back. But she keeps fuckin talking shit, then protect your rep and be who you are and handle her ass like you do anybody else that fuckin tries to fuck you over. BE. YOU. This is why your ass isn't locked up and destitute on the street, cuz you fuckin tell the fuckin truth and don't fuckin BULLSHIT MUTHAFUCKA'S! SO STOP BULLSHITTIN YERSELF! Stop taking low-life muthafucka's crap. Go get your son back. Finish what the fuck you started. And handle your business."

And that's why the title of the post is a snippet from EPMD. Because I'm gonna handle my business. This post is dedicated to my son. I am sorry for keeping you waiting like this. I won't let anyone or anything stop me again. I won't derail myself again, and I'm sorry, just hang on a little bit longer. Because I'm coming down the back-stretch now. Your Father is coming home son and nothing and no one will stop me from finishing what I started. I love you and I'm sorry for making you go through life alone without me....

   

From Child to Man

Good Evening from Philadelphia!

I'm taking a quick break from working on my book from Child to Man. I've got 90 days to finish it up and get it published one way or another and start generating some kind of revenue off of it. But the one thing I am not doing is cutting corners and rushing what I type and do, because then I can be sure that it won't sell.

It's a Black Sci-Fi Adventure-Drama and I'm really excited with what I have done so far in typing it up. I just finished a flashback scene where the father of the main-character is looking back on how his children have seen through the lies and deception of the Empire that they once served with loyalty. He's proud of the fact that he was at least able to pass on the reality of the relationship between their region, the Border-Region Territories, the BRT, and the Empire they serve. Or served with loyalty, before they decided to GET RID OF THEM! >_<!!!!!

Much of this book is based on Black History and it asks the question of what happens when your usefulness is up...?
Later!