I finally understand what she was SO POORLY trying to say.
And what she was trying to say is "Son? The company you are keeping is beneath you."
-_-
She wasn't the only one constantly sending me warnings to stop being involved with and depending on certain types of people IN AREAS THAT THEY CANNOT HONESTLY BE TRUSTED.
I've just had a nice long talk with my Former-Surrogate Son Dan where he thought I was going to curse him out and go on a rant. Where I was able to HONESTLY AND OPENLY TELL HIM HOW MUCH I APPRECIATED HIS SUPPORT OVER THESE LAST 13 HORRENDOUS YEARS!
But the way he decide to go out?
-_-
Make demands.
Place deadlines.
Cut off Communications.
Skulk.
Sulk.
Scowl.
...?
And then get angry when your demands and deadline are taken seriously.
Your decision to cut-off communications is taken seriously.
And then the Deadline You Set?
Was taken seriously.
And reached.
Thine door?
Let it hit Yon Ass hard enough to verily crack it!
As thou doth exit ungraciously, through it!
How the fuck can you throw down a gauntlet and make demands and then be pissed because I decided to FOCUS ON PRODUCING A RESULT. Based off of YOUR OWN DEMANDS. Instead of sit around and try to wipe your metaphoric emotional-ass, when you've given me A TIME CONSTRAINING DEADLINE.
-_-
I am seeing now what My Mother and My Sworn-Brothers were talking about when they kept saying that I take people seriously who NORMALLY ARE NOT TAKEN SERIOUSLY. I make commitments with people who ARE NOT SUITED FOR THE COMMITMENTS I'VE PLACED ON THEM AND THAT THEY'VE AGREED TO.
I think what is and was so shocking just now was the fact that My Former Surrogate-Son honestly thought that I'd been doing what I was doing in FOCUSING SOLELY ON MEETING HIS PRESCRIBED DEADLINE. He honestly believed that Me going along with the uncomfortable bullshit that has gone on for the last 2-years was something that I honestly wanted, needed or enjoyed. This is why people need to UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE DOING when they MAKE DEMANDS AND DRAW LINES IN THE SAND.
I take those things seriously.
As I should.
And so should anyone who does that.
I meant what I said.
We WON'T... meet again.
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