And I've thought about that long and hard where yesterday when I came in the door I found questions and exclamations and "whatever else" from some of you who read this blogsite wondering what was I going to do in regards to the Sexy Shuttle Bus Driver? What has been going on with My Ex-Wife has she even bothered to answer ANY of my calls or EVER call back? Did you know that Stacey is headed off on some Mystery Trip and where do YOU THINK she's going?
First some typing music;
I have made it clear throughout that I'm not somebody to TRY TO GET OVER ON. At some point or another I'm GOING TO CONFRONT YOU ABOUT WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU THINK YOU'RE GETTING AWAY WITH OR GOTTEN AWAY WITH.
I'm not somebody who won't or doesn't ACCEPT, pattern recognition.
Right now I KNOW FOR FACT that My Ex-Wife is now hoping that by "falling back" and LETTING MORE TIME PASS where My Son goes WITHOUT ME WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO CAUSE ALL THIS CRAP, then the better SHE THINKS things will go FOR HER.
She's NOT GOING TO SIMPLY CALL ME and say "Come over here and see your son." because she's come too far and gone too far with this whole UNNECESSARY BULLSHIT. And bullshit IT IS. But when a PERSON is a bullshitter then the best they can do IS BULLSHIT. There will ALWAYS BE SOME OTHER EXCUSE FOR WHY THEY WON'T CLEAN UP THE SHIT THEY SQUATTED DOWN AND CRAPPED OUT ON SOMEBODY, ANYBODY, not just me.
I found a TRAIL of PEOPLE, MOSTLY DUMB-ASS WHITE-BITCHES who believed the BULLSHIT that Noni was talking and she USED THEM TO THE BEST OF HER ABILITY TILL THEY REALIZED SHE WAS BULLSHITTING THEM! And then she UP AND RUNS OFF and they GIVE CHASE FOR A HOT MINUTE and then they simply let her go on with her bullshit. No concern about whatever she's showed and told them, MAINLY ABOUT HOW I SUPPOSEDLY BEAT HER, till they are STUCK WITH HAVING EXPERIENCED HER BULLSHIT FIRST HAND, where?
She can ONLY BE WHO SHE IS.
Just like I CAN ONLY BE WHO I AM.
Just like YOU CAN ONLY BE WHO YOU ARE.
I've had to learn the HARD WAY that women are told more often than not NOT TO ACCEPT WHO THEY ARE WHEN THEY FINALLY SEE THAT THEIR SELF-IMAGE?
Doesn't match THE REALITY of WHO THEY ARE.
Talking a bunch of bullshit and grinning and laughing and pretending to be PERSONABLE AND ALL OF THAT, only works for as long as the OTHER PERSON DOESN'T SPEND TOO MUCH TIME WITH HER.
Now? Noni realizes what I meant when I said that in the end, I will win and then have to CLEAN UP THIS BULLSHIT THAT BOTH OF US HAVE DONE. Because ME COMING UP WITH THIS SLASH-N-BURN STRATEGY TO CLEAR MY NAME, GET WHITES AWAY FROM AND OUT OF OUR FAMILY-BUSINESS AND KEEP MY SON FROM FALLING INTO DHS AND/OR WHATEVER OTHER USELESS WHITE ORGS THAT PRETEND TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT BLACK CHILDREN THAT THEY GET IN THEIR CLUTCHES, yo?
I don't bullshit when I know SHIT IS SERIOUS AND RIGHT CHOICES, BEST CHOICES, NEED TO BE MADE! I'm not gonna PRETEND LIKE the moment that ANYONE asks and searches for "Where is His Father" in regards to My Son "And what the fuck was HE DOING during all this fuckin time?" could very well be the same BULLSHITTIN ASS PEOPLE WHO SUPPORTED CREATED THE WHITE POWER SUPREMACY SYSTEM AND ENABLING RECKLESS BLACKWOMEN AND BLACKMEN who KNOW that with NO INFRASTRUCTURE OF OUR OWN WE ARE RISKING MAKING A BAD SITUATION 10X'S WORSE....
By inviting outsiders into Our Situations.
ESPECIALLY, Whites.
This leads me to Stacey.
First of all?
For the cross-readers who asked me "where is she going?" and I told you "Either to see Baby Dave Evans OR to go see HER DAUGHTER."
And some of you were shocked when I said "Her daughter" and I said nothing more. Well? Why would I say that she was going to see her daughter?
BECAUSE I FORCED REALITY INTO HER SITUATION WITH BABY DAVE EVANS.
Remember?
He WAS a MARRIED MAN WHEN SHE WAS CHEATING WITH HIM ON ME. And I told her TO HER FACE BY PHONE that all he's after is SOME PUSSY. Because THE REALITY WAS AND STILL IS;
He's in a BETTER SITUATION THAN ME and IF SHE WAS HIS SOULMATE, HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE ONE ABLE TO GET HER TO DIVORCE ZANE AND MARRY HIM WHILE HE WAS SINGLE, but HE DIDN'T AND SHE DIDN'T!
And that is critical!
That is critical.
She didn't fuckin move a muscle, but she did fuck him.
She didn't mind FUCKIN AROUND WITH HIM.
But when it came time to MAKE THAT MOVE?
GET THAT DIVORCE, nope!
Because she KNEW what she had with Zane.
And COWARDLY WOMEN ARE THE WORST.
They've NO PROBLEMS with doing shit that DIRECTLY CONFLICTS THE FACT THAT THEY'RE COWARDLY! But it is all based on SELFISHNESS! So THEIR NEED TO GET WHAT THEY WANT, DO WHAT THEY FUCKIN WANT! OVERRIDES THEIR OWN FUCKIN COWARDICE. So now if you're still following and giving a fuck what I just typed actually shows you that THIS TYPE OF WOMAN INHERENTLY CAN'T BE FUCKIN TRUSTED BY DEFAULT!
Hold up, music just ended for this post, lemme fuckin POST IT AGAIN where like EVERYTHING ELSE WITH ME, this MF Doom Ghostface SONG ISN'T ON THIS POST BY ACCIDENT.
Then fools GET COMFORTABLE thinking that the person is a fuckin herb, square, mark, SOME IDIOT THEY CAN GET OVER ON. When everyone with ANY BRAINS AT ALL KNOWS, nothing is WORSE THAN SOMEONE WHO FOLLOWS THE RULES AND IS A STRAIGHT-UP STRAIGHT-FORWARD PERSON...!? Deciding to GO ROGUE! And just DO WHATEVER! Where, the fact that THIS PERSON KNOWS HOW SHIT HONESTLY WORKS, makes them fuckin dangerous now that THEY DON'T GIVE A FUCK. Now that they've been shown, DOING SHIT "THE RIGHT WAY", doesn't fuckin mean shit or work, IN THIS INSTANCE. AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I JUST TYPED;
In this instance is critical. And it shows that this isn't about LASHING OUT AND NO LONGER GIVING A FUCK, NO! It is about ACCEPTING THAT IN THIS INSTANCE STAYING WITHIN THE RULES WILL NOT PRODUCE A DESIRABLE OUTCOME, SO!?
Fuck the rules.
Fuck them fuckin rules.
Because the person, situation or circumstances, HAVE NO RESPECT OR WORK WITHIN, "THE RULES", so? How can I DEAL WITH, in whatever way or context THAT PHRASE MEANS, how can I DEAL WITH this person and this situation when they don't have to or won't, follow and deal with shit within the supposed rules and regs laid down. You have to ADAPT to deal with them.
Trying to play fuckin mind-games with me and GET OVER ON ME, is a sure fire way to get yourself into some bizarre ass situation where you gotta keep wondering when I'm gonna finally confront you for the fuckery you put me through. I know you're reading this RIGHT NOW and because of that I'm gonna let you know that IT'S HARD TO DEAL WITH NOT HAVING A SAFE-HAVEN TO FALL BACK TO AFTER ALL THE BULLSHIT YOU PULLED. You THOUGHT you were getting over. YOU THOUGHT I was just going to KEEP PLAYING STUPID! Meanwhile?
Who the fuck invests all that fuckin Rand in a FAKE RELATIONSHIP!? -_- You, Stacey, DECIDED to fuck around with Baby Dave Evans while you KNEW you were in a committed relationship with me and would have WENT BESERK if I was over here talking to some bitch that I'd been fuckin and fuckin around with while I'd been married to Noni. But since YOU BELIEVE it is A-OKAY FOR YOU TO BE RATCHET AND TREACHEROUS!?
Even when warned by me for you to CUT THAT SHIT OUT!? You KEPT FUCKIN GOING ANYWAY! So My Behavior where YOU KNEW SOMETHING WAS SUSPICIOUS, yeah! You were RIGHT! Why wouldn't I just "move on", because bitch. You thought you were SLICK! So just like the phrase goes "Be careful what you wish for". I went right on ahead and MADE SURE TO FORCE YOU AND YOUR SOULMATE TOGETHER! And YOU WROTE THE SCRIPT FOR ME TO KNOW WHAT TO DO AND HOW TO DO IT, for the sole purpose of ME ALREADY HAVING TOLD AND SHOWN YOU THAT;
If He was INTO YOU like YOU CLAIMED?
Fuck am I doing here?
Fuck didn't you go get a divorce FOR HIM?
Fuck are you SPENDING ALL THAT RAND TO COME SEE ME FOR!?
While FUCKIN AROUND BEHIND MY BACK WITH A MARRIED FUCKIN MAN!
Who never fuckin claimed you when he was single and never fuckin fought TO CONVINCE YOU to go get a divorce WHEN HE WAS
Enough.
^_^
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!
It was because you saw he was willing to cheat with you and had NO STANDARDS.
-_-
You don't fuckin fool me with Your Twisted Logic.
You tested him and gave him some pussy with the soul intention of NEVER COMMITTING TO HIM EITHER ONCE HE SHOWED HE WAS WILLING TO FUCK YOU WHILE KNOWING YOU'RE MARRIED, at that time.
But when you came back at me and tried to CONVINCE ME TO BE YOUR ONLINE SIDE-PIECE CHICK-DUDE, I FUCKIN TOLD YOU FUCK OUTTA HERE! And I pointed out OPENLY AND HONESTLY WHY I SPOKE TO YOU AND STEPPED TO YOU WAS SOLELY BECAUSE I BELIEVED WHAT YOU SAID AND WHEN YOU DIDN'T FUCKIN LIVE UP TO THAT SHIT!?
I bounced, bitch.
So you tested me just like you tested Baby Dave Evans and understand whomever you are reading THIS. Yes, this shit is fuckin bizarre and ass-backwards. But IN THIS INSTANCE with THIS WOMAN, this is how HER THOUGHT PROCESS WORKS! And there are PLENTY OF WOMEN WHO ALSO THINK BACKWARDS LIKE THIS. And people talk about it but don't really GET INTO THE GUTS OF IT SO PEOPLE CAN SEE. You can't leave A WOMAN OR MAN WHO THINKS LIKE THIS, if you're A FRIEND, RELATIVE, ETC! Of someone whose thought-process is all twisted up like this, if you see it and you HONESTLY CARE AND/OR LOVE THIS PERSON, yo!?
Pull them aside and TALK TO THEM before they HONESTLY FUCK THEMSELVES UP PERMANENTLY! Too many muthafuckas are out here turning a BLIND-EYE to when they see someone just doing ASS-BACKWARDS BEHAVIOR and then SWEARING THEY'RE WINNING.
-_-
And this is the reason why MY LIFE has been FUCKED UP over the last decade and I'm busting my ass to fix it.
Because of the fact that I UNDERSTAND Crazy-bitches.
But I'm not crazy myself.
And the moment that the crazy-bitch sees that, then shit goes sideways.
For me?
It's about making better choices.
Me ACCEPTING a woman for who she is, MEANS NOTHING in today's times.
Because there are too many fools out here who wanna ABSOLVE RESPONSIBILITY FROM WOMEN FOR THE WRONG FUCKIN REASONS;
1) Low Expectation.
2) Panty Chasing.
3) And maintaining fucked-up-ass Whiteman Injected, Male-Domination.
That third one would take me a hot minute to explain and now it's 5:44am EST (now 6:15am EST) and I don't have time to type all of that out. Bottom line, I AM WHO I AM, I'm not here to fuckin impress women with bullshit for panties and all this other shit. Because My Father, who ONLY LIVED FOR THAT, was SMART ENOUGH TO SHOW ME THAT HIS WAY OF LIFE IS A SURE FIRE WAY TO DESTROY NOT JUST HIMSELF. But everyone involved with Him, regardless of whatever reason the woman had to lay down with him.
Meanwhile?
The Sexy Shuttle Bus Driver?
Showed me subtle signs of that same MERCURIAL-NESS, as Noni and Stacey. So I fell back. And just keep it TO WAVING. Because I CANNOT AFFORD to unlock yet another woman who believes that shit is cool for as long as she thinks she can get over, because she swears since I never dogged her out or fucked her over then she can just take potshots at me when I put my foot down or tell her NO.
Why did I invest so much time and energy into Noni and Stacey?
Because that is what you do when you love someone.
What THEY DECIDE TO DO WITH THAT LOVE?
And WHAT THEY'VE DONE WITH THAT LOVE?
Is their choice.
And in the end, because I clean up MY MESSES.
It becomes THEIR PROBLEM, because I'm not into ducking, dodging and deflecting when I know;
Good Morning.
From.
Philadelphia.
And don't spend up all your fuckin money in Thailand, idiot....
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